Maybe you aren't a philosopher and are perhaps just ergophobic (afraid of working)
You already know enough, your failure comes from a lack of what we scientifically call "doing the F*cking work". (DTFW)
It's because you're 18 and the dream of "maybe I can have it all and not have to struggle through effort" hasn't been killed yet.
You need to give yourself a challenge of some sort. Give yourself a quantified goal that requires daily reps. Making X calls, doing X pushups. The thing you DON'T want to do is probably the thing you need to do. You'll be shocked how much your brain wants to fight against you just doing the damn work. It would rather sit on the couch and philosophize all day. And you'll be shocked at how good you feel when you just do the damn work.
I was, am, and will always be fighting against this. Just do the reps.
You already know enough, your failure comes from a lack of what we scientifically call "doing the F*cking work". (DTFW)
It's because you're 18 and the dream of "maybe I can have it all and not have to struggle through effort" hasn't been killed yet.
You need to give yourself a challenge of some sort. Give yourself a quantified goal that requires daily reps. Making X calls, doing X pushups. The thing you DON'T want to do is probably the thing you need to do. You'll be shocked how much your brain wants to fight against you just doing the damn work. It would rather sit on the couch and philosophize all day. And you'll be shocked at how good you feel when you just do the damn work.
I was, am, and will always be fighting against this. Just do the reps.