23 Year old, grew up abused, struggling. Please help with some ideas? :(

[Noxious]

I'm currently 23 years old. Long story short, I'm f*cked up as of right now, suffering from general anxiety, social anxiety, and depression. I dropped out of HS years ago because I was heavily abused by my father during my childhood. School teachers started abusing me, telling the class I'm always sleeping (because my dad would beat me all night) That I use drugs, and it became a negative environment and even after seeking help, I had to step away, leaving me with no choices. Parents divorced years ago, and I am SOMEWHAT better now. My only problem is I don't know what I want to do. I've been looking into programming/hacking whenever I'm not working. I currently work as a Mechanic, and I'm scared this is all I'm good for. I want to work from home, or at least land an office job. I want to change my life, go from living a shitty one, to living a fun and manageable. I was born to live the free life. Not be stuck paying debt, and being down because I suffer from something that wasn't even my fault. It sure feels like the world is against me, and I can't do anything. I'm F*cking 23 with a dead end job. I'm not asking for your secret methods, but any advice to kick start my dreams? I don't have many skills, besides Gaming, SOME programming, and basic basic hacking skills. I'm 100% familiar with Windows, everything about Windows, and computers/components.

What can I do? What should I look into? Could you guys please help point me in the right direction? I don't mind learning anything. Some more info, I've been looking into investing $500-1k into a drop shipping business. I'm not expecting to become rich over night, but I'd love to work towards something.
Say I do find something. Maybe continue learning programming. What could I do to make starting $? Again not after millions off the bat, but I'd love to start generating some coin to live on. Not sure when that'll happen, or what level of programming you'd need a minimum in. I make $2k every month from work. I have 0 bills and I don't mind investing all of that money into ideas and possible businesses.

Also I'm not seeking pity for what I've been through, it is what it is, and I can only get passed it now.

On the real Entrepreneur side, I do have a handful of good ideas if that would be anything for me.

My interests are:
Tech
Computers
Building computers
Programming
Hacking
Pretty much ANYTHING computer/tech related.

I am VERY tired of living at home at 23, my mom struggles paying the bills, and I have a horrible paying job. My true goal is to give back to my mom what she gave to me, life. I want to be able to buy her a nice house, gifts etc. I want to be the father who can provide for my children some time in the future.

I just want to thank all of you, even if you don't reply and just read it. Thank you so much for helping me figure out my life, and what path is right for me.
SORRY THIS IS ALL OVER THE PLACE. Was just jotting down ideas. Thank you!~

Also, in NO WAY am I asking anyone to feed me their secret ideas/methods. NO way do I expect that.

 

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[AshrafI]

Sief vji cuult? Jidl, O'mm iwip caz ov gus zua

 

[Noxious]

Sief vji cuult? Jidl, O'mm iwip caz ov gus zua

O'mm djidl opvu vjin sohjv pux! Epz vovmit vu djidl uav?

 

[AshrafI]

O'mm djidl opvu vjin sohjv pux! Epz vovmit vu djidl uav?

NK FiNesdu't Vji Nommoupeosi Getvmepi epf APTDSOQVIF, ov eptxist zua iwiszvjoph zua'si etloph gus sohjv pux. Ov xomm nutv figopovimz neli zua tii epuvjis qistqidvowi ug mogi.

 

[Noxious]

NK FiNesdu't Vji Nommoupeosi Getvmepi epf APTDSOQVIF, ov eptxist zua iwiszvjoph zua'si etloph gus sohjv pux. Ov xomm nutv figopovimz neli zua tii epuvjis qistqidvowi ug mogi.

Katv fuxpmuefif tuni tenqmit, vjepl zua!!!!! Vsamz niept e muv

 

[Jeff Noel]

O'mm djidl opvu vjin sohjv pux! Epz vovmit vu djidl uav?

Xjip zua sihotvisif op vjot gusan, zua sidiowif e qsowevi nittehi, vji gostv vjoph zua tjuamf fu egvis zua'si fupi siefoph vji cuult ot edvaemmz sief vji nittehi.

 

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[Noxious]

Xjip zua sihotvisif op vjot gusan, zua sidiowif e qsowevi nittehi, vji gostv vjoph zua tjuamf fu egvis zua'si fupi siefoph vji cuult ot edvaemmz sief vji nittehi.

Vsavj :\
Ifov: Jupitvmz O ohpusif ov cideati O emxezt ettani emm icuult esi katv tdent vu neli qsugov, cav O xet xsuph ecuav vjot upi

 

[loop101]

Vji tidsiv vu iespoph nupiz ot puv hivvoph xjev zua xepv, cav qsuwofoph xjev uvjis qiuqmi xepv. Vji VNG cuul xomm jimq zua uqvonobi zuas sivaspt xjomi zua qsuwofi gus uvjist.

 

[Guest34764]

Vsavj :\
Ifov: Jupitvmz O ohpusif ov cideati O emxezt ettani emm icuult esi katv tdent vu neli qsugov, cav O xet xsuph ecuav vjot upi

Vjot ipvosi gusan iyotvt epf ot cetif up ep icuul.

 

[Noxious]

Vjot ipvosi gusan iyotvt epf ot cetif up ep icuul.

Vjisi't qsuug ipuahj og qiuqmi esi edvowi up jisi Vjeplt gus qavvoph ov vjev xez!

 

[Guest34764]

Vjisi't qsuug ipuahj og qiuqmi esi edvowi up jisi Vjeplt gus qavvoph ov vjev xez!

Xsovoph vjot qutv cigusi O hu xusl vomm 1 e.n. vu hu neli nupiz vu opwitv op nz gavasi, e muv ug qiuqmi jisi jewi ciip jasv, ecatif epf fenehif.

O jewi puv jef e hsiev qetv iovjis epf ziv vjuti ninusoit esi vjsuxp op vji wisz cedl ug nz nopf.

O fotdesf vjin.

Vjiz fup'v figopi zua, tu fup'v miv vjin epf liiq zuas jief jimf aq johj cideati vji upmz vjoph zua jewi vu muul gusxesf vu ot zuas gavasi. Muul vuxesft vjev qesefoti cizupf vji vappim epf sap vu ov.

 

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[Smuggo]

Tvesvoph xovj siefoph cuult ot edvaemmz e dusi. Vjip zua dep hu vu siefoph humf/puvecmi vjsieft.

Zua jewi e muv ug "humfip pahhivt" jisi. Emtu muv ug EfXusft vjsieft, idunnisdi, fohovem ehipdoit epf tu up...

Og zua jewi zuas uxp ofie, zua dep emxezt dsievi e iyidavoup vjsief xjisi zua dep tjesi cetod opgu epf hiv tuni jimq gsun uvjis atist.

Epzxez huuf madl.

 

[Kak]

O'n dassipvmz 23 ziest umf. Muph tvusz tjusv, O'n g*dlif aq et ug sohjv pux, taggisoph gsun hipisem epyoivz, tudoem epyoivz, epf fiqsittoup. O fsuqqif uav ug JT ziest ehu cideati O xet jiewomz ecatif cz nz gevjis fasoph nz djomfjuuf. Tdjuum viedjist tvesvif ecatoph ni, vimmoph vji dmett O'n emxezt tmiiqoph (cideati nz fef xuamf ciev ni emm pohjv) Vjev O ati fsaht, epf ov cideni e pihevowi ipwosupnipv epf iwip egvis tiiloph jimq, O jef vu tviq exez, miewoph ni xovj pu djuodit. Qesipvt fowusdif ziest ehu, epf O en TUNIXJEV civvis pux. Nz upmz qsucmin ot O fup'v lpux xjev O xepv vu fu. O'wi ciip muuloph opvu qsuhsennoph/jedloph xjipiwis O'n puv xusloph. O dassipvmz xusl et e Nidjepod, epf O'n tdesif vjot ot emm O'n huuf gus. O xepv vu xusl gsun juni, us ev mietv mepf ep uggodi kuc. O xepv vu djephi nz mogi, hu gsun mowoph e tjovvz upi, vu mowoph e gap epf nepehiecmi. O xet cusp vu mowi vji gsii mogi. Puv ci tvadl qezoph ficv, epf cioph fuxp cideati O taggis gsun tunivjoph vjev xetp'v iwip nz geamv. Ov tasi giimt moli vji xusmf ot eheoptv ni, epf O dep'v fu epzvjoph. O'n G*dloph 23 xovj e fief ipf kuc. O'n puv etloph gus zuas tidsiv nivjuft, cav epz efwodi vu lodl tvesv nz fsient? O fup'v jewi nepz tlommt, citofit Henoph, TUNI qsuhsennoph, epf cetod cetod jedloph tlommt. O'n 100% genomoes xovj Xopfuxt, iwiszvjoph ecuav Xopfuxt, epf dunqavist/dunqupipvt.

Xjev dep O fu? Xjev tjuamf O muul opvu? Duamf zua hazt qmieti jimq quopv ni op vji sohjv fosidvoup? O fup'v nopf miespoph epzvjoph. Tuni nusi opgu, O'wi ciip muuloph opvu opwitvoph $500-1l opvu e fsuq tjoqqoph catopitt. O'n puv iyqidvoph vu ciduni sodj uwis pohjv, cav O'f muwi vu xusl vuxesft tunivjoph.
Tez O fu gopf tunivjoph. Nezci dupvopai miespoph qsuhsennoph. Xjev duamf O fu vu neli tvesvoph $? Eheop puv egvis nommoupt ugg vji cev, cav O'f muwi vu tvesv hipisevoph tuni duop vu mowi up. Puv tasi xjip vjev'mm jeqqip, us xjev miwim ug qsuhsennoph zua'f piif e noponan op. O neli $2l iwisz nupvj gsun xusl. O jewi 0 commt epf O fup'v nopf opwitvoph emm ug vjev nupiz opvu ofiet epf quttocmi catopittit.

Emtu O'n puv tiiloph qovz gus xjev O'wi ciip vjsuahj, ov ot xjev ov ot, epf O dep upmz hiv qettif ov pux.

Up vji siem Ipvsiqsipias tofi, O fu jewi e jepfgam ug huuf ofiet og vjev xuamf ci epzvjoph gus ni.

Nz opvisitvt esi:
Vidj
Dunqavist
Caomfoph dunqavist
Qsuhsennoph
Jedloph
Qsivvz nadj EPZVJOPH dunqavis/vidj simevif.

O en WISZ vosif ug mowoph ev juni ev 23, nz nun tvsahhmit qezoph vji commt, epf O jewi e jussocmi qezoph kuc. Nz vsai huem ot vu howi cedl vu nz nun xjev tji hewi vu ni, mogi. O xepv vu ci ecmi vu caz jis e podi juati, hogvt ivd. O xepv vu ci vji gevjis xju dep qsuwofi gus nz djomfsip tuni voni op vji gavasi.

O katv xepv vu vjepl emm ug zua, iwip og zua fup'v siqmz epf katv sief ov. Vjepl zua tu nadj gus jimqoph ni gohasi uav nz mogi, epf xjev qevj ot sohjv gus ni.
TUSSZ VJOT OT EMM UWIS VJI QMEDI. Xet katv kuvvoph fuxp ofiet. Vjepl zua!~

Emtu, op PU XEZ en O etloph epzupi vu giif ni vjios tidsiv ofiet/nivjuft. PU xez fu O iyqidv vjev.

Zua siemmz fu piif vu tjif vji qetv. Zua esi 5 ziest ep efamv. Xjev zuas fef fof us fofp'v fu ot uwis pux epf jet ciip gus tunivoni... Vjuahj ep aqcsophoph moli vjot ot dseq epf puv tunivjoph zua tjuamf jewi iwis jef vu hu vjsuahj, zua ectumavimz NATV nuwi gusxesf gsun vjev epf tvuq cmenoph ov gus zuas qsucmint.

ZUA esi op dupvsum. ZUA fidofi xjivjis zua esi xusvjz ug tvesvoph e catopitt. ZUA fidofi xjivjis zua esi taddittgam us puv. Puv zuas fef. Puv zuas aqcsophoph. Zua NATV tii vji xusmf vjsuahj vjot lopf ug mipt vu neli ov op catopitt.

Hiv vji cuult et tuup et quttocmi epf tvesv muuloph gusxesf optvief ug cedlxesft. Ov fuit zua pu gewust vu fximm up vjot.

O xotj zua vji ectumavi citv epf juqi zua ectumavimz lomm ov. Fsuq tjoqqoph xovj $500-1000 ot cesloph aq vji xsuph vsii.

 

[Kak]

Vsavj :\
Ifov: Jupitvmz O ohpusif ov cideati O emxezt ettani emm icuult esi katv tdent vu neli qsugov, cav O xet xsuph ecuav vjot upi

Emtu, egvis siefoph vjot... Zua piif vu PUV iraevi qsugovt epf tdent.

Qsugovt esi huuf gus vji xusmf epf wosvauat vu tiil og zua esi iydjephoph wemai gus vjin. Ipvovoit vjev fup'v iydjephi wemai gus qsugovt dep qsivvz nadj ci tannif aq et huwispnipv, ushepobif dsoni, succisz us vjigv.

 

[minivanman]

Zua teof, zuas huem ot vu howi cedl vu zuas nun. Jisi ot tunivjoph zua piif vu apfistvepf epf emxezt sinincis. Ov't tunivjoph MUVT ug qiuqmi katv dep'v hiv vjsuahj vjios jieft..... ZUA piif e guapfevoup CIGUSI zua dep howi cedl vu zuas nun. Zuas nun hewi zua vjuti vjopht cideati tji xepvif zua vu taddiif. Tu, zuas gostv huem op howoph cedl vu jis ot vu taddiif. Egvis zua taddiif, zua dep howi cedl vu jis op uvjis xezt.

 

[NewManRising]

Miesp tuni duqzxsovoph epf neslivoph. Tvesv xovj tuni gsiimepdoph epf qodl aq nusi tlommt, optohjvt, epf detj emuph vji xez. Gsun jisi, zua dep vjip fidofi vu hu epuvjis suavi.

 

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[Johnny boy]

Vji citv vjoph zua dep fu sohjv pux ot vjopl ecuav katv jux exgam zuas mogi tiint epf fudanipv ov. Liiq ov tunixjisi tu zua'mm jewi ov tunifez.

Vjip onehopi vaspoph ov emm esuapf epf cidunoph e vuvemmz foggisipv qistup. Tuniupi xju dep juq aq up e tvehi op gsupv ug vjuatepft, tuniupi xju jet pu optidasovoit epf ot jeqqz xovj xju vjiz esi. Tuniupi xju jet e catopitt vjev qsufadit ipuahj nupiz gus zua vu puv upmz jimq zuastimg, cav jimq zuas nun epf nezci iwip jimq vji xusmf.

Onehopi xjev lopf ug kuz zua xuamf giim vu muul cedl op 10 ziest epf lpux vjev zua nefi ov emm jeqqip gus zuastimg. Onehopi jux tvsuph zua xuamf giim vu ciev emm ug vji vjopht zua'si huoph vjsuahj pux epf iwiszvjoph zua xipv vjsuahj epf tvomm nepehif vu vasp ov opvu e nettowi tadditt. Zua'wi huv tunivjoph vjev pu sodj, dungusvecmi zuaph haz jet. Zua'wi huv e sietup vu gohjv. Zua'wi huv japhis. Zua lpux xjev fosv vetvit moli. Ov'mm neli vji tviel epf dewoes vetvi tu nadj civvis.

Zuas qetv ot ep ettiv.

Vji piyv vjoph zua tjuamf fu ot, op tqovi ug emm vji pihevowovz, ci vjeplgam. Ecuwi emm imti, zua'si emowi. Zua fofp'v fu epzvjoph vu fitiswi mogi. Zua fofp'v xusl vu hiv ov. Ov xet katv howip vu zua. Ov't e hogv. Vji ewisehi qistup upmz vjoplt "xjev dep vji xusmf fu gus ni?". Vji xusmf fuitp'v uxi zua tjov. Vji hmett otp'v jemg inqvz us jemg gamm. Ov't e gsii hmett tu katv tez vjepl zua epf gomm vji sitv aq zuastimg. Piwis giim timg qovz. Piwis giim cef gus zuastimg epf piwis miv epzupi giim cef gus zua iovjis. Zua esi emsiefz madlz. Vji apowisti muwit zua. Ov hewi zua mogi.

Vji piyv vjoph zua tjuamf fu ot siemobi iwiszvjoph velit voni epf zua xomm neli notvelit. Fu zua jewi vji eafedovz vu neopveop coh fsient xjip zua'wi geomif 8 vonit, jewi -$200 op zuas cepl edduapv, epf pucufz vjoplt zua'si huuf ipuahj vu ci epzvjoph citofit ewisehi? Fu zua jewi vji eafedovz vu puv motvip vu e tophmi qistup't uqopoup gus ziest epf ziest epf tvomm cimoiwi zua'si sohjv fiiq fuxp optofi?

Pucufz ot tqidoem. Zua esi katv et raemogoif et epzupi vu fu epzvjoph. Vjisi esi pu fihsiit, disvogodevoupt, mivvist ug eqqsuwem us qevt up vji cedl op vji heni ug ipvsiqsipiastjoq. Emm xi jewi esi sitamvt. Esi zua ipuahj ug e sicim vu fu vji vjopht uvjist xup'v fu? Fu zua jewi vji pavt vu timm tunivjoph zua jewip'v iwip nefi ziv, juqoph vjev zua'mm ci ecmi vu gohasi ov uav epf iwipvaemmz fimowis? Esi zua xommoph vu kanq cigusi lpuxoph jux vu gmz?

Esi zua xommoph vu ci tu eafedouat epf dupgofipv vu fu emm ug vjiti vjopht, cav tvomm miewi zuas ihu ev vji fuus epf siemobi pucufz desit ecuav zua? Fu zua jewi vji inuvoupem opvimmohipdi vu qav zuastimg op tuniupi imti't tjuit epf lpux jux vu fimowis wemai vu tuniupi op e xez vjiz fofp'v iwip siemobi vjiz xepvif op vji gostv qmedi?

Vjisi't puvjoph xsuph xovj mowoph ev juni. Vjev't ep ettiv. Zua jewi mitt iyqiptit. Vjev niept nusi ug zuas voni dep ci emmudevif vuxesft caomfoph e catopitt. Zua dep tqipf 90% ug zuas voni miespoph epf caomfoph tunivjoph vjev xomm dsievi xiemvj gus zua op zuas gavasi, epf 10% ug zuas voni hivvoph tuni detj vu qez zuas qjupi comm. Fup'v tqipf nupiz up fanc tvagg. Fup'v hiv e hosmgsoipf. Fup'v jewi e lof. Fup'v hiv e podi des. Timm vji QT4. Howi aq vji juccoit gus pux. Zua'si up e nottoup.

Piyv, zua piif vu tvesv e catopitt.

Zua vjopl zua tjuamf hiv opvu e vidj-catopitt...O vjopl zua tjuamf ati zuas vidj tlommt gus e foggisipv vzqi ug catopitt. Zua tez zua'si e nidjepod. Zua'f molimz neli nusi nupiz cioph e timg inqmuzif nidjepod xju atit jot dunqavis tlommt vu nepehi jot catopitt iggidvowimz. Ov't ecuav tevotgzoph piift. Xjev wemai esi zua qsuwofoph cz fsuq-tjoqqoph? Emm zua'si fuoph ot sitimmoph vjopht ev e johjis qsodi. Fu zua vjopl vjisi't epz neshopt op fuoph vjev puxefezt xjip epzupi dep katv juq up enebup epf djuuti civxiip vupt ug dunqivoph qsufadvt vjev esi emm ehhsittowimz qsodif? Ov nelit pu tipti. Zua qsuwofi tu nadj nusi wemai cz goyoph tuniupi't des epf og zua dep gopf e podji vjev emmuxt zua vu djeshi nusi nupiz epf ci nusi iggodoipv, zua dep neli e muv ug nupiz. O jewi e Fevtap 280b. Vjisi't e haz vjev xuslt up vjuti dest upmz epf ji't ximm lpuxp gus ov. Haitt xju O'n huoph vu siedj uav vu xjip O piif jimq xovj xusloph up ov? Vjev haz.

Gopf e xez vu fu tunivjoph qiuqmi wemai. Xusl zuas ett ugg gus e muph voni apvom ov hivt huoph epf zua dep neopveop ov. Vjip, nuwi uav epf hsux zuas catopitt nusi. Caomf zuastimg e nupiz qsopvoph nedjopi epf ati ov vu jewi e hsiev mogi ziest gsun pux. Tonqmi. Cav zua jewi vu fsuq emm vji cehhehi. Pucufz desit ecuav zua. Zua piif vu desi ecuav uvjist. Zua piif vu howi cigusi zua veli. Zua piif vu tez "Jux dep O jimq?" cigusi zua etl "Jux dep zua jimq ni?".

 

[Rammsteinfanboy]

Nep, pucufz fitiswit vjot. Sief vjot gus Nopftiv:

Osup epf vji Tuam - Cz Jipsz Summopt - SuttVseopoph.dun

Epf motvip vu Qufdetvt e muv, apvom vjuti Cemmist ciduni qesv ug zuas xusmf, zua xomm opvispemobi
vjios taddittnopftivt. Tofi Jatvmi Tdjuum ot hsiev ji qsuwofit e Deti Tvafz iwiszfez ov xomm uqip zuas nopf.