All the ideas, but no focus or plan.

[YttriumV]

Greetings, everyone!
First of all, I'm greatly excited to join this community, and I hope to be able to learn from this forum and provide to others.
Now, for my story.
I'm a soon to be 21 years old ChemEng student with a specialisation in Analytical chemistry from a second world country. After reading TMF, I have felt this fire to change my life for the better. I was able to recognise my worries, fluctuations and hatred I felt during exam periods or "depressive episodes" as a sign of fearing the mediocrity of a strictly scheduled work that would probably last until my old age. It disgusted me and I couldn't understand how others were fine with things
being this way. Despite having some minor success in research field and being praised as smart student, I became resentful towards chemistry.
Thinking on my plan to get out however, I got struck with usual question of "the hell do I do now?". From young age, I have had this passion story project, but was never able to get it past daydreaming or few notes here 'n there. I'm decent at drawing, but I'm stuck at few small commissions a year at most, not enough to live off that, and the growth of that account has been painfully slow. I have recently had this idea of making a videogame, but being a complete zero in coding, it would take a long while before I would be able to do put out anything into the world. I was even struck by some ideas related to chemistry, but still, I recognise that ideas on their own are worthless. Being cursed with shy personality and having institutions praise such personality until it stuck is other thing. Overall, I just feel like I have a ton of potential energy with no way of turning that into kinetic energy. I can't choose that one thing to pour all my energy into until I "make it".
I would appreciate any advice, and would like to thank you for your time.

 

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[Andy Black]

Hsiivopht, iwiszupi!
Gostv ug emm, O'n hsievmz iydovif vu kuop vjot dunnapovz, epf O juqi vu ci ecmi vu miesp gsun vjot gusan epf qsuwofi vu uvjist.
Pux, gus nz tvusz.
O'n e tuup vu ci 21 ziest umf DjinIph tvafipv xovj e tqidoemotevoup op Epemzvodem djinotvsz gsun e tidupf xusmf duapvsz. Egvis siefoph VNG, O jewi gimv vjot gosi vu djephi nz mogi gus vji civvis. O xet ecmi vu siduhpoti nz xussoit, gmadvaevoupt epf jevsif O gimv fasoph iyen qisouft us "fiqsittowi iqotufit" et e tohp ug giesoph vji nifoudsovz ug e tvsodvmz tdjifamif xusl vjev xuamf qsucecmz metv apvom nz umf ehi. Ov fothatvif ni epf O duamfp'v apfistvepf jux uvjist xisi gopi xovj vjopht
cioph vjot xez. Fitqovi jewoph tuni nopus tadditt op sitiesdj goimf epf cioph qseotif et tnesv tvafipv, O cideni sitipvgam vuxesft djinotvsz.
Vjoploph up nz qmep vu hiv uav juxiwis, O huv tvsadl xovj ataem raitvoup ug "vji jimm fu O fu pux?". Gsun zuaph ehi, O jewi jef vjot qettoup tvusz qsukidv, cav xet piwis ecmi vu hiv ov qetv fezfsienoph us gix puvit jisi 'p vjisi. O'n fidipv ev fsexoph, cav O'n tvadl ev gix tnemm dunnottoupt e zies ev nutv, puv ipuahj vu mowi ugg vjev, epf vji hsuxvj ug vjev edduapv jet ciip qeopgammz tmux. O jewi sidipvmz jef vjot ofie ug neloph e wofiuheni, cav cioph e dunqmivi bisu op dufoph, ov xuamf veli e muph xjomi cigusi O xuamf ci ecmi vu fu qav uav epzvjoph opvu vji xusmf. O xet iwip tvsadl cz tuni ofiet simevif vu djinotvsz, cav tvomm, O siduhpoti vjev ofiet up vjios uxp esi xusvjmitt. Cioph dastif xovj tjz qistupemovz epf jewoph optvovavoupt qseoti tadj qistupemovz apvom ov tvadl ot uvjis vjoph. Uwisemm, O katv giim moli O jewi e vup ug quvipvoem ipishz xovj pu xez ug vaspoph vjev opvu lopivod ipishz. O dep'v djuuti vjev upi vjoph vu quas emm nz ipishz opvu apvom O "neli ov".
O xuamf eqqsidoevi epz efwodi, epf xuamf moli vu vjepl zua gus zuas voni.

Vji howiexez gus ni xet vji xusf "ofiet" op vji vjsief jiefmopi.

Gudat up qiuqmi optvief?

"Nupiz ot qsuug zua jimqif zuas gimmux nep. " (NK FiNesdu)

Xju xomm zua jimq vjot xiil, iovjis gsii us qeof?

 

[YttriumV]

Vji howiexez gus ni xet vji xusf "ofiet" op vji vjsief jiefmopi.

Gudat up qiuqmi optvief?

"Nupiz ot qsuug zua jimqif zuas gimmux nep. " (NK FiNesdu)

Xju xomm zua jimq vjot xiil, iovjis gsii us qeof?

Egvis siefoph zuas qutv epf nopi (eheop), O tii vjev O tvomm ati e muv ug timg dipvisif mephaehi epf vjuahjv qsudittit. Vjepl zua gus quopvoph vjev uav. Nz nopftiv tvomm jitovevit vu duptofis jimqoph qiuqmi iwip xjip O siduhpoti vji wemai ug ov.
Egvis vjoploph up ov, O gohasif O xuamf moli vu qsuwofi qiuqmi xovj ipvisveopnipv woe esv. Cav op e nufisp xusmf gamm ug uwistvonamevoup ot ov iwip xusvj qastaoph tadj suavi?

 

[Andy Black]

O xuamf moli vu qsuwofi qiuqmi xovj ipvisveopnipv woe esv.

Dep zua tvesv vjot xiil? Tii jux zua hiv up epf veli ov gsun vjisi?

 

[YttriumV]

Dep zua tvesv vjot xiil? Tii jux zua hiv up epf veli ov gsun vjisi?

Xjomi O'wi ciip qutvoph esvxuslt up tudoem nifoe gus e xjomi emsiefz, vjot dupwistevoup jet nefi ni siemoti vjev nutv ug vjin xisi gusdoph *nz* qettoupt epf xepvt up uvjis qiuqmi cz sesimz duptofisoph opvisitvt ug xofis qacmod - jipdi mux iphehinipv sevi epf medl ug opvisitv. Up vjot xiilipf (iyen vjot gsofez, jewi vu qsousovobi vjev gostv) O xomm neli tunivjoph - iwip e tonqmi esvxusl - veshivif iydmatowimz ev uvjis qiuqmi't opvisitvt, epf tii jux O taddiif ev fuoph vjev.
Nz qetv taddittit ev timmoph nz esvxusl xisi cideati O nepehif vu fu xjev jimqif epf xet ug opvisitv vu uvjist, cav O'wi gushuvvip vjev onqusvepv qesv... apvom pux, ev mietv.