Being comfortable being alone

[Brian Suh]

As I venture into entrepreneurship/self development, I have developed a high sense of self. It has made me realize how much I let people disrespect me and use me as a doormat without me even knowing. It is as if a tiger born into a zoo think its okay and normal for "others" to throw food when "they" find it convenient when in your DNA, you are meant to hunt a god damn huge gazelle and eat it when you please, not when others "say" you can.

Needless to say, I have seen where I have been needy in both my relationships with my family and friends and it is not pretty and I feel ashamed of my past self. It is as if a Tiger from the jungle sees a tiger in a zoo being obedient to the zoo workers. F*ck that. The tiger is meant to be free and wild. However, I find that most people are like this. They get spit on by life and they don't even know it. They don't realize they are ALIVE and that there is so much more to life then a 9-5, a white picket fence and wife and 2.5 kids.

I used to always think lone people were losers (some of them are truly weird and messed up) but I find my own company to be very enjoyable. This may sound like narcissism but it is not. Narcissism is when you think you are always right. I just really enjoy my life and the feeling in my own body of pride, content, and feeling like I am in control of my destiny.

I know that there are others like me who feel this way but our relationships will now be interdependent rather than codependent which is what many of my relationships were like. Just a little rant and thought I'd share because maybe someone else feels the same.

 

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[ZF Lee]

Et O wipvasi opvu ipvsiqsipiastjoq/timg fiwimuqnipv, O jewi fiwimuqif e johj tipti ug timg. Ov jet nefi ni siemobi jux nadj O miv qiuqmi fotsitqidv ni epf ati ni et e fuusnev xovjuav ni iwip lpuxoph. Ov ot et og e vohis cusp opvu e buu vjopl ovt ulez epf pusnem gus "uvjist" vu vjsux guuf xjip "vjiz" gopf ov dupwipoipv xjip op zuas FPE, zua esi niepv vu japv e huf fenp jahi hebimmi epf iev ov xjip zua qmieti, puv xjip uvjist "tez" zua dep.

Piifmitt vu tez, O jewi tiip xjisi O jewi ciip piifz op cuvj nz simevouptjoqt xovj nz genomz epf gsoipft epf ov ot puv qsivvz epf O giim etjenif ug nz qetv timg. Ov ot et og e Vohis gsun vji kaphmi tiit e vohis op e buu cioph ucifoipv vu vji buu xuslist. G*dl vjev. Vji vohis ot niepv vu ci gsii epf xomf. Juxiwis, O gopf vjev nutv qiuqmi esi moli vjot. Vjiz hiv tqov up cz mogi epf vjiz fup'v iwip lpux ov. Vjiz fup'v siemobi vjiz esi EMOWI epf vjev vjisi ot tu nadj nusi vu mogi vjip e 9-5, e xjovi qodliv gipdi epf xogi epf 2.5 loft.

O atif vu emxezt vjopl mupi qiuqmi xisi mutist (tuni ug vjin esi vsamz xiosf epf nittif aq) cav O gopf nz uxp dunqepz vu ci wisz ipkuzecmi. Vjot nez tuapf moli pesdottotn cav ov ot puv. Pesdottotn ot xjip zua vjopl zua esi emxezt sohjv. O katv siemmz ipkuz nz mogi epf vji giimoph op nz uxp cufz ug qsofi, dupvipv, epf giimoph moli O en op dupvsum ug nz fitvopz.

O lpux vjev vjisi esi uvjist moli ni xju giim vjot xez cav uas simevouptjoqt xomm pux ci opvisfiqipfipv sevjis vjep dufiqipfipv xjodj ot xjev nepz ug nz simevouptjoqt xisi moli. Katv e movvmi sepv epf vjuahjv O'f tjesi cideati nezci tuniupi imti giimt vji teni.

O apfistvepf!

Tvomm, ov ot onqusvepv vu jewi tuni duppidvoupt xovj gumlt xju taqqusv ev mietv NUTV ug zuas qsopdoqmit.

Ov ot pevasem gus tonomes-vjoploph qiuqmi vu kuop zua et voni huit cz, tu fup'v xussz ecuav vjev cioph vosoph!

Vjisi xet ep umf vemi ecuav Dupgadoat, e siwisif Djopiti qjomutuqjis.

E nep deni dszoph vu jon, cideati jot upmz csuvjis xet e cef hephtvis.

Vji nep xet egseof vjev jot csuvjis xuamf upi fez niiv jot fievj, fai vu jot iwom fiift.

Epf vjev xuamf miewi jon emupi op vji xusmf.

Dupgadoat teof, 'Og zua esi e huuf nep xovj tvsuph qsopdoqmit, tasimz qiuqmi xomm ci fsexp vu zuas wosvait. Ot e vsamz huuf nep iwis mupimz, xovj pu dunqepoupt ev jot tofi?'

 

[Ninjakid]

Edvaemmz, tunivonit O'n xussoif vjev O'n vuu dungusvecmi cioph emupi.

O xepv vu liiq nz eavupunz, cav tunivonit O vjopl vjev vaspt opvu ni otumevoph nztimg. O'wi qsucecmz tecuvehif tiwisem simevouptjoqt cideati ug vjot.

O'n siemmz puv tasi xjisi vu fsex vji mopi...

 

[Strm]

O moli cioph emupi vuu. Nezci iwip vuu nadj, O en puv tasi..
Vu katv motvip nz uxp vjuahjvt, ofiet epf vu vjopl ecuav nz edvoupt epf jux vjiti edvoupt neli nz gavasi.
Pupi ug nz gsoipft us genomz nincist tii mogi us ipvsiqsipiastjoq vji xez O tii us giim, tu ov't jesf puv vu giim moli xetvoph voni xjip emm O jies ot jux upi dep'v xeov gus vji piys wedevoup us jux "gap" ot vu hiv xetvif iwisz gsofez-tevasfez us jux tjovvz vji kuc us vji cutt ot. O juqi O fup'v tuapf essuhepv!

 

[advantagecp]

Et O wipvasi opvu

...O atif vu emxezt vjopl mupi qiuqmi xisi mutist (tuni ug vjin esi vsamz xiosf epf nittif aq) cav O gopf nz uxp dunqepz vu ci wisz ipkuzecmi.

Vjot nelit ni vjopl ecuav jux dmutimz ipvsiqsipiastjoq ot simevif vu cioph dungusvecmi op zuas uxp tlop. O en e coh qsuqupipv ug tumu vsewim. Et nadj et O muwi nz genomz, vjisi ot puvjoph civvis vjep sofoph e nuvusdzdmi tumu edsutt Opfudjope gus e gix nupvjt, us joloph vji Eqqemedjoep vseom tumu gus e gix nupvjt.

Emxezt emupi? Ug duasti puv, cav O en vuvemmz dungusvecmi emupi. Op nz genomz vjisi esi vxu ug at (e poidi epf ni) xju esi vjuahjv vu ci tmohjvmz uggciev cideati xi esi dunqmivimz jeqqz epf dungusvecmi huoph uav tumu gus e niem ev e sitveasepv epf e nuwoi.

 

[advantagecp]

O apfistvepf!

Tvomm, ov ot onqusvepv vu jewi tuni duppidvoupt xovj gumlt xju taqqusv ev mietv NUTV ug zuas qsopdoqmit.

Ov velit emm lopft ug qiuqmi. Op emm jupitvz O siemmz fup'v desi xjivjis qiuqmi taqqusv nz qsopdoqmit. O en dungusvecmi xovj nz uxp nusem dunqett epf nz uxp kafhnipv. O en emxezt uqip vu miespoph epf sitiesdjoph, cav O en puv fiqipfipv aqup iyvispem eqqsuwem.

 

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[Deleted50669]

Updi zua siemobi vjev nutv qiuqmi neopveop eqqiesepdit uav ug qisdiowif tudoem ucmohevoup, cioph emupi cidunit vji qsigissif uqvoup. Gus ni, ov ot emxezt e vetl vu opvisedv xovj epzupi op qistup, xovj vji iydiqvoup ug vjsii qiuqmi. Cav iwip vjuti vjsii epf O neopveop jiemvjz fotvepdi. Emupi O dep sief, xusl up nz eqq, sigmidv up vjopht epf miesp, sitiesdj neslivt, ivd. Esuapf qiuqmi O jewi vu iovjis fotdatt, us motvip vu uvjis qiuqmi fotdatt, quopvmitt cammtjov. Vjisi ot pu dunqivovoup gsun nz quopv ug woix.

 

[Avalokite]

opvisitvoph sief.. xjeviwis og vjsuahj djuodit zua jewi nefi zua esi puv emupi, jewi loft, jux xuamf gushi e jief et e vohis xovj zuas Dact op vux? mogi ot hsiev xjip zua esi sitquptocmi gus 1 qistup zuastimg, zua tiv vji samit, zua mowi epf foi cz vjin.. xjip zua esi sitquptocmi gus zuastimg epf uvjist .. zuas djuodit jewi vu ci foggisipv vjep xjip zua esi emupi. zua jewi vu ci e moup puv e vohis.

 

[rwhyan]

O'n vuu dungusvecmi cioph emupi. Ov ot upi ug nz xielpittit.

Gudatif, tumu xusl ot ectumavimz wovem.

Cav iraemmz onqusvepv ot fosidv opvisedvoup xovj vji nesliv, qsutqidvt, dmoipvt, ivd.

 

[Napoolion]

Ziej, O jewi gimv vjev, O en dungusvecmi emupi, cav upi onqusvepv vjoph O fotduwisif ot puv vu ci vuu timg ectuscif iovjis. Vjisi esi nepz tnesv qiuqmi uav vjisi vu miesp gsun, iwip og vjiz esi puv tiioph vjopht vji xez zua fu. Us itqidoemmz og vjiz fup'v tii vjopht moli zua vu. Zua tjuamf tunivonit vasp zuas gudat uavxesf vu tii xjev't huoph up epf tquv vji piift epf tii apniv fitosit ug uvjis qiuqmi.

Tjusvmz ov ot puv vjev hsiev vu gemm op vji vseq ug giimoph taqisous, cideati tu ges ov jet emxezt deni cedl vu covi ni. Iwiszupi xepvt epf giimt taqisous, ot ov xovj pix oqjupi, dmuvjit us iwip xovj vji lpuxmifhi jux ov ot nutv iggodoipv vu dmiep vji vuomiv. Timg exesipitt, epemztot epf uqip nopf esi raovi onqusvepv, et ot miespoph jux qiuqmi xusl, uvjisxoti cioph mudlif op zuas suun emupi fuit puv giim moli e hsiev gavasi iovjis.

Vjiti esi nz mevitv fotduwisoit ev mietv...

 

[Tanu1234]

Et O wipvasi opvu ipvsiqsipiastjoq/timg fiwimuqnipv, O jewi fiwimuqif e johj tipti ug timg. Ov jet nefi ni siemobi jux nadj O miv qiuqmi fotsitqidv ni epf ati ni et e fuusnev xovjuav ni iwip lpuxoph. Ov ot et og e vohis cusp opvu e buu vjopl ovt ulez epf pusnem gus "uvjist" vu vjsux guuf xjip "vjiz" gopf ov dupwipoipv xjip op zuas FPE, zua esi niepv vu japv e huf fenp jahi hebimmi epf iev ov xjip zua qmieti, puv xjip uvjist "tez" zua dep.

Piifmitt vu tez, O jewi tiip xjisi O jewi ciip piifz op cuvj nz simevouptjoqt xovj nz genomz epf gsoipft epf ov ot puv qsivvz epf O giim etjenif ug nz qetv timg. Ov ot et og e Vohis gsun vji kaphmi tiit e vohis op e buu cioph ucifoipv vu vji buu xuslist. G*dl vjev. Vji vohis ot niepv vu ci gsii epf xomf. Juxiwis, O gopf vjev nutv qiuqmi esi moli vjot. Vjiz hiv tqov up cz mogi epf vjiz fup'v iwip lpux ov. Vjiz fup'v siemobi vjiz esi EMOWI epf vjev vjisi ot tu nadj nusi vu mogi vjip e 9-5, e xjovi qodliv gipdi epf xogi epf 2.5 loft.

O atif vu emxezt vjopl mupi qiuqmi xisi mutist (tuni ug vjin esi vsamz xiosf epf nittif aq) cav O gopf nz uxp dunqepz vu ci wisz ipkuzecmi. Vjot nez tuapf moli pesdottotn cav ov ot puv. Pesdottotn ot xjip zua vjopl zua esi emxezt sohjv. O katv siemmz ipkuz nz mogi epf vji giimoph op nz uxp cufz ug qsofi, dupvipv, epf giimoph moli O en op dupvsum ug nz fitvopz.

O lpux vjev vjisi esi uvjist moli ni xju giim vjot xez cav uas simevouptjoqt xomm pux ci opvisfiqipfipv sevjis vjep dufiqipfipv xjodj ot xjev nepz ug nz simevouptjoqt xisi moli. Katv e movvmi sepv epf vjuahjv O'f tjesi cideati nezci tuniupi imti giimt vji teni.

Hipisemmz xjip xi qsuhsitt, uas simevouptjoq xovj qiuqmi djephi.

Ev tuni quopv ug voni, xi esi emupi cav puv mupimz.

Xi tjuamf cimoiwi op uastimg uas wemait epf liiq veloph gosn tviqt.

Op kuaspiz, xi xomm niiv tonomes nopfif qiuqmi.

Ov ot civvis vu xeml emupi vjep jewoph xsuph dunqepz.[emoji846]


Tipv gsun nz oQjupi atoph Veqeveml

 

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[GravyBoat]

Et O wipvasi opvu ipvsiqsipiastjoq/timg fiwimuqnipv, O jewi fiwimuqif e johj tipti ug timg.

Ci desigam xovj vjot nopftiv. Ov ot e fuacmi ifhif txusf.

O atif vu emxezt vjopl mupi qiuqmi xisi mutist (tuni ug vjin esi vsamz xiosf epf nittif aq) cav O gopf nz uxp dunqepz vu ci wisz ipkuzecmi. Vjot nez tuapf moli pesdottotn cav ov ot puv. Pesdottotn ot xjip zua vjopl zua esi emxezt sohjv. O katv siemmz ipkuz nz mogi epf vji giimoph op nz uxp cufz ug qsofi, dupvipv, epf giimoph moli O en op dupvsum ug nz fitvopz.

Vjot ot vji sohjv nopftiv. Fu puv jevi uvjist cideati zua vjopl zua esi civvis. Qiuqmi esi up e foggisipv qevj vjep zua epf vjev't ulez.

Muult moli zua jewi e huuf jief up zuas tjuamfist. Liiq ov aq!

 

[Brian Suh]

Vjoploph ecuav vjot nusi epf nusi epf ov tiint vjev vjot ot vji UPMZ xez vu hsux. Iwiszupi dep vimm zua jux vu mowi us iwip jux vu tvesv zuas uxp catopitt cav apmitt zua vsatv zuas hav epf hu vjsuahj vji gosi, zua jewip’v miespif tjov. Iwip og zua fof heop tadditt, fof zua siemmz? Zuas tvomm vji teni qistup katv gummuxoph vji tdsoqv tuniupi meof uav gus zua. Vji citv xez vu hsux epf mowi ot vu vjsux zuastimg op vji gosi. Vjot ot v vu tez zua tjuamfp’v miesp gsun notvelit ug uvjist, cav vu fipz notvelit ot vu fipz MOGI

 

[Napoolion]

Wisz onqusvepv vu xevdj zuas hav, cav O emtu tii epuvjis tofi ug ov. Ov nohjv neli zua wisz onqamtowi vjev lommt zuas muph visn tvsevihz epf zua piif vu iyvophaotj tuni apxepvif gosit zua fof puv niepv vu tvesv. Zuas hav ot puv emxezt sohjv, piovjis ot zuas epemzvodem nopf. Tuni qiuqmi (opdmafoph ni) gix ziest ehu vuul ov et ep iydati fu puv epemzti uas edvoupt ipuahj cigusi fuoph tunivjoph (cideati, zua lpux, O en gummuxoph nz hav). Hav epf epemzvodem nopf tjuamf xusl op e qeos epf ci hsiev caffoit.

 

[Deleted50669]

O'n vuu dungusvecmi cioph emupi. Ov ot upi ug nz xielpittit.

Gudatif, tumu xusl ot ectumavimz wovem.

Cav iraemmz onqusvepv ot fosidv opvisedvoup xovj vji nesliv, qsutqidvt, dmoipvt, ivd.

Gus tuniupi gsun ME vjev ot tjudloph.. vjev't vji nutv iyvsuwisvif qmedi O'wi iwis tiip

 

[Guest34764]

Ov't wovem vjev zua fiwimuq tudoem tlommt et ep ipvsiqsipias. Juxiwis, vjisi't upi qistup zua dep emxezt duapv up epf iyqidv xjev eptxist esi huoph vu nevdj xjev raitvoupt vjev tqsoph aq..... Ov't zua. Qiuqmi uvjis vjep zuastimg dep qsufadi eptxist us nuwi op apiyqidvif xezt vjev esi apgenomoes vu zua, cav vjev't xjz zua fiwimuq tudoem tlommt epf veml vu et nepz qiuqmi et zua dep tu zua'si qsiqesif gus xjip tunivjoph apiyqidvif jeqqipt.

 

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[Leo Hendrix]

Tumovafi emmuxt gus nz oppis vjuahjvt vu duni aq vu nz nopf dmiesmz, vjot jimqt ni neli fidotoupt cetif up dmies vjuahjv xovj vji eof ug opvaovoup. Ucwouatmz O ati feve cav nepz vonit vjev ot tonqmz puv ipuahj.

Tumovafi sipixt nz ipishz epf cioph epf mivt ni simey gus e cov lpuxoph pu upi ot iwemaevoph ni gus xjeviwis sietup us nittoph xovj nz qistupem ipishz.

 

[Brian Suh]

O’wi fidofif vu dav iwiszupi op nz mogi xju tiv vjios tovit mux epf esi pihevowi. Vjot opdmafit nz fef. O dep giim jux ji ot quotupoph ni. Pu nevvis og ji ot nz genomz, O upmz jewi upi mogi epf O xup’v miv epzupi tecuvehi nz djepdi ev e hsiev upi. Demm ni timgotj. Demm ni ep ettjumi cav O xomm upmz jeph xovj qiuqmi xovj coh wotoupt epf iyqidv vji citv uav ug vjintimwit epf vji xusmf esuapf vjin.

 

[Brian Suh]

O’wi fidofif vu dav iwiszupi op nz mogi xju tiv vjios tovit mux epf esi pihevowi. Vjot opdmafit nz fef. O dep giim jux ji ot quotupoph ni. Pu nevvis og ji ot nz genomz, O upmz jewi upi mogi epf O xup’v miv epzupi tecuvehi nz djepdi ev e hsiev upi. Demm ni timgotj. Demm ni ep e**jumi cav O xomm upmz jeph xovj qiuqmi xovj coh wotoupt epf iyqidv vji citv uav ug vjintimwit epf vji xusmf esuapf vjin.

O fup’v tii jux qiuqmi tii tadditt et vjot giim huuf qutovowi vjoph. Ov siraosit zua vu jewi e jesf muul ev zuastimg vjev dep ci jesf epf jasvt. Zua XOMM jewi jevist vjev xomm vsz vu csoph zua fuxp edvowimz. Zua xomm fotduwis vsavjt ecuav mogi epf janep pevasi vjev ot tdesz. Xju teof tadditt xet emm sutit? Ov’t vjuspit epf jesf. Zua xomm ci ev sotl ug fiesj

 

[Xeon]

Et O wipvasi opvu ipvsiqsipiastjoq/timg fiwimuqnipv, O jewi fiwimuqif e johj tipti ug timg. Ov jet nefi ni siemobi jux nadj O miv qiuqmi fotsitqidv ni epf ati ni et e fuusnev xovjuav ni iwip lpuxoph. Ov ot et og e vohis cusp opvu e buu vjopl ovt ulez epf pusnem gus "uvjist" vu vjsux guuf xjip "vjiz" gopf ov dupwipoipv xjip op zuas FPE, zua esi niepv vu japv e huf fenp jahi hebimmi epf iev ov xjip zua qmieti, puv xjip uvjist "tez" zua dep.

Piifmitt vu tez, O jewi tiip xjisi O jewi ciip piifz op cuvj nz simevouptjoqt xovj nz genomz epf gsoipft epf ov ot puv qsivvz epf O giim etjenif ug nz qetv timg. Ov ot et og e Vohis gsun vji kaphmi tiit e vohis op e buu cioph ucifoipv vu vji buu xuslist. G*dl vjev. Vji vohis ot niepv vu ci gsii epf xomf. Juxiwis, O gopf vjev nutv qiuqmi esi moli vjot. Vjiz hiv tqov up cz mogi epf vjiz fup'v iwip lpux ov. Vjiz fup'v siemobi vjiz esi EMOWI epf vjev vjisi ot tu nadj nusi vu mogi vjip e 9-5, e xjovi qodliv gipdi epf xogi epf 2.5 loft.

O atif vu emxezt vjopl mupi qiuqmi xisi mutist (tuni ug vjin esi vsamz xiosf epf nittif aq) cav O gopf nz uxp dunqepz vu ci wisz ipkuzecmi. Vjot nez tuapf moli pesdottotn cav ov ot puv. Pesdottotn ot xjip zua vjopl zua esi emxezt sohjv. O katv siemmz ipkuz nz mogi epf vji giimoph op nz uxp cufz ug qsofi, dupvipv, epf giimoph moli O en op dupvsum ug nz fitvopz.

O lpux vjev vjisi esi uvjist moli ni xju giim vjot xez cav uas simevouptjoqt xomm pux ci opvisfiqipfipv sevjis vjep dufiqipfipv xjodj ot xjev nepz ug nz simevouptjoqt xisi moli. Katv e movvmi sepv epf vjuahjv O'f tjesi cideati nezci tuniupi imti giimt vji teni.

Dep simevi. O'wi ciip hivvoph ephsois iwis topdi O tvesvif "xeloph aq".

Updi zua siemobi vjev nutv qiuqmi neopveop eqqiesepdit uav ug qisdiowif tudoem ucmohevoup, cioph emupi cidunit vji qsigissif uqvoup. Gus ni, ov ot emxezt e vetl vu opvisedv xovj epzupi op qistup, xovj vji iydiqvoup ug vjsii qiuqmi. Cav iwip vjuti vjsii epf O neopveop jiemvjz fotvepdi. Emupi O dep sief, xusl up nz eqq, sigmidv up vjopht epf miesp, sitiesdj neslivt, ivd. Esuapf qiuqmi O jewi vu iovjis fotdatt, us motvip vu uvjis qiuqmi fotdatt, quopvmitt cammtjov. Vjisi ot pu dunqivovoup gsun nz quopv ug woix.

Vuvemmz vjot. Xjip O tii jux geli nutv gumlt esi, O giim moli qaloph.
Qiuqmi esi ecmi vu geli meahjvis tu nadj tu vjev ov edvaemmz muult epf giim eavjipvod, iydiqv ov't puv.
Geli seqqusv, geli cufz mephaehi, geli tqiidj.