Hi guys!
Before you decide to push forward I'd like to give a small introduction as to what this thread is going to be about. So here we go...
This thread is going to build on this thread I've posted couple of weeks ago. The results have been so dramatic that I decided to elaborate a little bit. I know how messed up my situation was, I also know that there are probably dozens of forum members who are sitting in quiet and never coming out of shadows who are dealing with similar demons I've dealt just a good month ago. So, my purpose is to take those people for a trip onto the road of recovery by expanding on my findings and personal story I've linked above. If this sounds like your piece of a bread and you have 20 minutes to spare, buckle up and let's go for a ride!
First and foremost I'd like to appreciate for pushing forward and reading my story. I'm going to be transparent, somewhat shocking, but 100% honest with you all. I would never post anything like this on social media due to many reasons, but this forum is like my family, so here we go:
Let's spool back to 2015. I've invested five figure sum of personal savings into the business, which eventually crashed bringing down not only mine, but many more peoples' investments into the nothingness. I've lost it all. I've got bullied by investors. Threatened. Made fun of. All of this resulted in me succumbing to a 2 year long depression. Slowly but surely I had turned into very reserved, socially awkward, fat, negative and suicidal human being. My body was present, but my mind was elsewhere. I've tried to hide my financial failure from many friends, which was sort of a success, but it was meaningless, because I had slowly became a prisoner of my own sorrow...
I had tried to climb out of darkness multiple times. Literally like 20 or so. Only to fall back down and hurt my a$$ (ego) over and over again. Eventually, roughly in 2016 Q2 I had my first taste of weed. It felt good. Like lighting a firework that's illegal. I had a rush of excitement and fun flowing through my mind. It was all cool until I got hooked up on it - it became my only medicine of pain relief. Due to extensive weed smoking (2-3 joints a day) I started over eating and climbed up to almost 140kg. The life got even harder...
I started contemplating suicide. On a regular basis. My mind was so destructive that I was contemplating suicide even when everybody else was having fun. I was thinking what's the point of living in this pain, hurting people I love most and not seeing a damn light at the end of a tunnel? I was convinced most people would be better off without me. I thrown a handful of prescribed tablets into my mouth and soon after ended up in hospital. I was like, "damn, I failed. I failed badly. Next time I have to try harder" and I did, only to end up in hospital again...after multiple suicides I soon caught psychiatrist's attention...
Fast-forward multiple psychiatrist and counselling visits, nothing changed. I was still in the same emotional shithole. I tried to escape, but I couldn't. It felt like some kind of entity has climbed up on my shoulders and is weighting me down every day. It was so hard that I couldn't climb out of my bed most days. I was literally crying in my bed, alone, fantasizing of dying. Some people are afraid of going to sleep, because there's a chance of a nightmare - I was afraid of waking-up, because I was waking into the nightmare. So, yeah, situation was more than messed up. Nobody knew WTF is wrong with me. Not even so called professionals. I was even looking for ways to donate my body to some meaningful cause (no, not for sexual purposes, lol) - I was hoping someone will kill me and use my body for scientific experiments or something like that. But couldn't find anything. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. Maybe there was a small spark of hope in a deep darkness of my mind. Don't know...
Now, it's going to sound like some kind of sales pitch or nonsense story, but listen to me what happened next...I took a photo of my body weight (like 10th time) and set goals to lose some weight. I didn't expect much of it, because I was still feeling depressed and smoked weed (this was in November). December crossed the line and a strange signal literally crashed into my mind, it was telling me "do something. Fkin serve people, even for free - lift your a$$ and do something FOR DAMN FREE WITHOUT OVERTHINKING THE PROCESS" - I don't really know how this thought entered my mind. It was sort of like when you think about the problem and solution enters your mind...I was like, "Feck it, let's do it I have nothing to lose anyways and I'm not going to charge anything, so why not?"...
I had multiple business ideas and decided to push forward with the easiest one - CV and Cover Letter writing service. I created my Facebook page, logo, etc. in literally a single day (which usually took me over a month previously) and I started advertising my services for free. People started responding, I started getting attention...most people were shocked that I'm doing this entirely for FREE. It took me literally a day or so after I took some action to decide quitting on weed and starting a healthy lifestyle...from that moment I didn't smoke a single joint and even hate a thought of it and am still on Atkin's diet since then...
Few weeks passed and I started getting applauses for what I did. Many people contacted me with amazing compliments regarding my writing style, quality and structure of work. Most people were amazed. Others asked how and where I learned my writing style used for CVs and CLs, others asked about the uniqueness of design, which stood out from the rest of knock-offs that are even more expensive than mine...so I got a huge boost of confidence!
I didn't know what I am going to do, but I knew I have to build an audience for my FB page. So, in just a month I've built 650 organic likes and 87 organic 5 star reviews of people literally writing paragraphs of compliments. In just a month I received like 5 or so messages from people telling me my work has helped them win job offers. Some of these people were in pretty desperate financial situations - one of them even got two job offers and asked me how to politely turn one of them off. I think I shouldn't tell you how SUPER AWESOME that felt...
I started getting some people who wanted to pay for my services too, so I made like €150 in that freemium month, which was a therapy in itself. Not much, but I didn't even think of making anything at all...
Now I feel like a new human. It's midnight, I just got back from the gym, still have to write like 3 CVs and after that I am going to start marketing my services for a fee that is way below market price, but due to my strategy and approach I've learned from my professional experience it's more than worth it - thanks to automation! And about weight? Oh, well. See it for yourself:
Before you decide to push forward I'd like to give a small introduction as to what this thread is going to be about. So here we go...
This thread is going to build on this thread I've posted couple of weeks ago. The results have been so dramatic that I decided to elaborate a little bit. I know how messed up my situation was, I also know that there are probably dozens of forum members who are sitting in quiet and never coming out of shadows who are dealing with similar demons I've dealt just a good month ago. So, my purpose is to take those people for a trip onto the road of recovery by expanding on my findings and personal story I've linked above. If this sounds like your piece of a bread and you have 20 minutes to spare, buckle up and let's go for a ride!
First and foremost I'd like to appreciate for pushing forward and reading my story. I'm going to be transparent, somewhat shocking, but 100% honest with you all. I would never post anything like this on social media due to many reasons, but this forum is like my family, so here we go:
Let's spool back to 2015. I've invested five figure sum of personal savings into the business, which eventually crashed bringing down not only mine, but many more peoples' investments into the nothingness. I've lost it all. I've got bullied by investors. Threatened. Made fun of. All of this resulted in me succumbing to a 2 year long depression. Slowly but surely I had turned into very reserved, socially awkward, fat, negative and suicidal human being. My body was present, but my mind was elsewhere. I've tried to hide my financial failure from many friends, which was sort of a success, but it was meaningless, because I had slowly became a prisoner of my own sorrow...
I had tried to climb out of darkness multiple times. Literally like 20 or so. Only to fall back down and hurt my a$$ (ego) over and over again. Eventually, roughly in 2016 Q2 I had my first taste of weed. It felt good. Like lighting a firework that's illegal. I had a rush of excitement and fun flowing through my mind. It was all cool until I got hooked up on it - it became my only medicine of pain relief. Due to extensive weed smoking (2-3 joints a day) I started over eating and climbed up to almost 140kg. The life got even harder...
I started contemplating suicide. On a regular basis. My mind was so destructive that I was contemplating suicide even when everybody else was having fun. I was thinking what's the point of living in this pain, hurting people I love most and not seeing a damn light at the end of a tunnel? I was convinced most people would be better off without me. I thrown a handful of prescribed tablets into my mouth and soon after ended up in hospital. I was like, "damn, I failed. I failed badly. Next time I have to try harder" and I did, only to end up in hospital again...after multiple suicides I soon caught psychiatrist's attention...
Fast-forward multiple psychiatrist and counselling visits, nothing changed. I was still in the same emotional shithole. I tried to escape, but I couldn't. It felt like some kind of entity has climbed up on my shoulders and is weighting me down every day. It was so hard that I couldn't climb out of my bed most days. I was literally crying in my bed, alone, fantasizing of dying. Some people are afraid of going to sleep, because there's a chance of a nightmare - I was afraid of waking-up, because I was waking into the nightmare. So, yeah, situation was more than messed up. Nobody knew WTF is wrong with me. Not even so called professionals. I was even looking for ways to donate my body to some meaningful cause (no, not for sexual purposes, lol) - I was hoping someone will kill me and use my body for scientific experiments or something like that. But couldn't find anything. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. Maybe there was a small spark of hope in a deep darkness of my mind. Don't know...
Now, it's going to sound like some kind of sales pitch or nonsense story, but listen to me what happened next...I took a photo of my body weight (like 10th time) and set goals to lose some weight. I didn't expect much of it, because I was still feeling depressed and smoked weed (this was in November). December crossed the line and a strange signal literally crashed into my mind, it was telling me "do something. Fkin serve people, even for free - lift your a$$ and do something FOR DAMN FREE WITHOUT OVERTHINKING THE PROCESS" - I don't really know how this thought entered my mind. It was sort of like when you think about the problem and solution enters your mind...I was like, "Feck it, let's do it I have nothing to lose anyways and I'm not going to charge anything, so why not?"...
I had multiple business ideas and decided to push forward with the easiest one - CV and Cover Letter writing service. I created my Facebook page, logo, etc. in literally a single day (which usually took me over a month previously) and I started advertising my services for free. People started responding, I started getting attention...most people were shocked that I'm doing this entirely for FREE. It took me literally a day or so after I took some action to decide quitting on weed and starting a healthy lifestyle...from that moment I didn't smoke a single joint and even hate a thought of it and am still on Atkin's diet since then...
Few weeks passed and I started getting applauses for what I did. Many people contacted me with amazing compliments regarding my writing style, quality and structure of work. Most people were amazed. Others asked how and where I learned my writing style used for CVs and CLs, others asked about the uniqueness of design, which stood out from the rest of knock-offs that are even more expensive than mine...so I got a huge boost of confidence!
I didn't know what I am going to do, but I knew I have to build an audience for my FB page. So, in just a month I've built 650 organic likes and 87 organic 5 star reviews of people literally writing paragraphs of compliments. In just a month I received like 5 or so messages from people telling me my work has helped them win job offers. Some of these people were in pretty desperate financial situations - one of them even got two job offers and asked me how to politely turn one of them off. I think I shouldn't tell you how SUPER AWESOME that felt...
I started getting some people who wanted to pay for my services too, so I made like €150 in that freemium month, which was a therapy in itself. Not much, but I didn't even think of making anything at all...
Now I feel like a new human. It's midnight, I just got back from the gym, still have to write like 3 CVs and after that I am going to start marketing my services for a fee that is way below market price, but due to my strategy and approach I've learned from my professional experience it's more than worth it - thanks to automation! And about weight? Oh, well. See it for yourself:
NOVEMBER 25TH
JANUARY 31ST
And all of this happened, because I simply chose to help myself by helping others.
JANUARY 31ST
Thanks for reading and being part of my journey!
P.S. Sorry for grammar mistakes. I've got to write some more CVs and it's already almost 1am!
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