Let me start by saying, I’ve read the book. I just started re-reading it again last week. I’ve never read a book twice in my life……….ever!
I’m very familiar with the forum, but have never posted an Intro and I feel this is as good a time as any.
The title of this thread, although it wasn’t intended to be, is really like an analogy of my career path and entrepreneurial dreams. I’ve left it up to the mercy of others, and even with what should be renewed inspiration, I’m struggling to stay afloat with the discomfort and uncertainty just been drawn out and strung along.
Let me just say it, I’m a WANTREPRENEUR….
A little about me………I have an Engineering degree, I always ‘got through’ academically with school reports letting my parents know that I ‘had the ability’ but needed to apply myself. I’ve had more careers that I care to remember, sales, kitchen design, property, engineering, recruitment, ‘business development’ (fancy title for a sales job) and more. My CV is pretty interesting, though probably not to a serious employer. I’ve lived in the USA and London, and have travelled, enough to get it out of my system for now. I partied a lot on the way.
While I was living away and travelling, people back home were progressing in their careers. Now I’m behind and it’s frustrating. Not that frustrating though, because really, I don’t want to be where they are. I want to be free! I don’t want to put up with authority, and the cubicle life, I never have! I always thought to myself, it’s ok, I’ll be my own boss and free by the time I’m 30 so I never focused on anything. Hello, I’m 37 soon!
Somehow I managed to stay in my last job over 3 years (record!), even with a long commute and now I’ve stepped up to a Senior level in a new company. This brings me to today. Honestly, I’m struggling in this role, and unfortunately I don’t seem to care. I know that if I get fired, it will add extra stress at home, but I seem to want to self sabotage. It’s almost like I want to confirm my expectations, that I’m not good enough. While others around me in the team are getting engrossed in solving some technical issue, I get bored, drifting into my own world. Time is spent on the web, reading forums, googling ‘entrepreneur’, and following links to stories of successful billionaires which is really quite disheartening.
I’ve been building my library of books, the TMF , The Millionaire Next Door, The 4 HWW, How to Win Friends and Influence People, The 7 Habits of Highly Successful People, Autobiographies, all the usual. Do I feel motivated each time I turn the page? Yep! Have I done anything about it? Nope! I just waken up every day and go through the motions, commute, have a non-productive day, come home, complain, eat, spend time with family, do the chores and when I finally have time to do something which is around 10pm, I’m done! Exhausted…….it’s TV, I-pad, or bed.
I’ve spent my fair share of time on YouTube with Tony Robbins, Zig Ziglar and anyone else who claims to have the ability to turn my life around! Does it work? Nope!
I get it, you gotta put in the work, you gotta grind, you gotta hustle, you gotta network, you gotta speak positive, use the right vocabulary, visualize. Let’s face it, its common sense really! Do I do it? NO, NO and NO! Why not?? I can’t answer that! Does it hurt bad enough? Well obviously it mustn’t, but it bloomin’ well feels like it does….bigtime! Every day I get so frustrated! Sitting at my desk, it feels like a ball and chain has me shackled to this rather comfortable office chair. I feel like I’m going to implode! I can’t stare at the screen anymore, and clock in and clock out and explain my every movement…..argggghhhhh!!
I guess it was the news today about my probationary period that prompted me to put this intro out there. That and the reminder I received last week from GoDaddy to say that the domain name I registered for my multinational venture automatically renewed. WHAT?#! You mean it’s been 1 year already? Nooooo waaaaaay! Let me check my account……oh yeah, there’s 6 or 7 domains in here. I forgot about those after 4 years. Ah, the memories and the ideas. Off course, I happened to find the remainder of my ebay stock that I bought from Alibaba last year at the bottom of the cupboard just the other day too. Then there’s the Amazon reminders, to rate the ‘Miracle Morning’ that I bought about this time last year. I haven’t quite got around to setting my alarm clock an hour earlier yet. Whoooops, I blame the sleepness nights…
I also recently found my notepad with all those ideas that James Altucher told me I should jot down everyday. The heated toilet seat, the see through toaster….a few crazier ones. Let me think about those. Yep, already been done, no sense pursuing that one! Probably no one would be interested in that one. Oh, and this one, nah, it’ll never work. Wait a minute, you mean you want me to research, build a prototype, test the market, raise money, raise awareness, go to a trade show, network…….HOLD THE PHONE! Little old me?? I’m not smart enough, I’m not confident enough, I don’t have a clue what I’m doing. Nah, I don’t think so. That’s only for the rich and famous! Elon Musk will sort that one. Besides, I gotta make a cup of tea first……
Honesty, who decided that 2 days of freedom for 5 days of work was a good trade? Don’t you people know I have a life to live, things to do, experiences to have, pictures to take……memories to be made!
I’m so STUCK! I hate it! It’s making me miserable, but I don’t know where to turn! Time is slipping away and running out on me, on us all for that matter! Confidence and self belief are big problems….along with so many other things.
I get pumped up, then quickly deflated and disillusioned. I believe in an idea, and that I can really do it this time, but then it fades. My mind jumps from one thing to another every hour of every day. Last week it was a book, a product, Upwork, copywriting, ebay, purchase an apartment block….
The thing is, I’m ‘just ok’ at most things, and not special at any. Jack of all trades and master of none as we say. I’m fairly average at everything, and can’t seem to focus on anything for longer than 5 minutes.
There’s more to life, and I’m going nowhere fast! It’s really, really getting me down in a BIG way. I’m not even sure what I expect to achieve with this intro, but I just need to get it off my chest, and I figured this is the place. Family and friends just don’t get it……
I’m very familiar with the forum, but have never posted an Intro and I feel this is as good a time as any.
The title of this thread, although it wasn’t intended to be, is really like an analogy of my career path and entrepreneurial dreams. I’ve left it up to the mercy of others, and even with what should be renewed inspiration, I’m struggling to stay afloat with the discomfort and uncertainty just been drawn out and strung along.
Let me just say it, I’m a WANTREPRENEUR….
A little about me………I have an Engineering degree, I always ‘got through’ academically with school reports letting my parents know that I ‘had the ability’ but needed to apply myself. I’ve had more careers that I care to remember, sales, kitchen design, property, engineering, recruitment, ‘business development’ (fancy title for a sales job) and more. My CV is pretty interesting, though probably not to a serious employer. I’ve lived in the USA and London, and have travelled, enough to get it out of my system for now. I partied a lot on the way.
While I was living away and travelling, people back home were progressing in their careers. Now I’m behind and it’s frustrating. Not that frustrating though, because really, I don’t want to be where they are. I want to be free! I don’t want to put up with authority, and the cubicle life, I never have! I always thought to myself, it’s ok, I’ll be my own boss and free by the time I’m 30 so I never focused on anything. Hello, I’m 37 soon!
Somehow I managed to stay in my last job over 3 years (record!), even with a long commute and now I’ve stepped up to a Senior level in a new company. This brings me to today. Honestly, I’m struggling in this role, and unfortunately I don’t seem to care. I know that if I get fired, it will add extra stress at home, but I seem to want to self sabotage. It’s almost like I want to confirm my expectations, that I’m not good enough. While others around me in the team are getting engrossed in solving some technical issue, I get bored, drifting into my own world. Time is spent on the web, reading forums, googling ‘entrepreneur’, and following links to stories of successful billionaires which is really quite disheartening.
I’ve been building my library of books, the TMF , The Millionaire Next Door, The 4 HWW, How to Win Friends and Influence People, The 7 Habits of Highly Successful People, Autobiographies, all the usual. Do I feel motivated each time I turn the page? Yep! Have I done anything about it? Nope! I just waken up every day and go through the motions, commute, have a non-productive day, come home, complain, eat, spend time with family, do the chores and when I finally have time to do something which is around 10pm, I’m done! Exhausted…….it’s TV, I-pad, or bed.
I’ve spent my fair share of time on YouTube with Tony Robbins, Zig Ziglar and anyone else who claims to have the ability to turn my life around! Does it work? Nope!
I get it, you gotta put in the work, you gotta grind, you gotta hustle, you gotta network, you gotta speak positive, use the right vocabulary, visualize. Let’s face it, its common sense really! Do I do it? NO, NO and NO! Why not?? I can’t answer that! Does it hurt bad enough? Well obviously it mustn’t, but it bloomin’ well feels like it does….bigtime! Every day I get so frustrated! Sitting at my desk, it feels like a ball and chain has me shackled to this rather comfortable office chair. I feel like I’m going to implode! I can’t stare at the screen anymore, and clock in and clock out and explain my every movement…..argggghhhhh!!
I guess it was the news today about my probationary period that prompted me to put this intro out there. That and the reminder I received last week from GoDaddy to say that the domain name I registered for my multinational venture automatically renewed. WHAT?#! You mean it’s been 1 year already? Nooooo waaaaaay! Let me check my account……oh yeah, there’s 6 or 7 domains in here. I forgot about those after 4 years. Ah, the memories and the ideas. Off course, I happened to find the remainder of my ebay stock that I bought from Alibaba last year at the bottom of the cupboard just the other day too. Then there’s the Amazon reminders, to rate the ‘Miracle Morning’ that I bought about this time last year. I haven’t quite got around to setting my alarm clock an hour earlier yet. Whoooops, I blame the sleepness nights…
I also recently found my notepad with all those ideas that James Altucher told me I should jot down everyday. The heated toilet seat, the see through toaster….a few crazier ones. Let me think about those. Yep, already been done, no sense pursuing that one! Probably no one would be interested in that one. Oh, and this one, nah, it’ll never work. Wait a minute, you mean you want me to research, build a prototype, test the market, raise money, raise awareness, go to a trade show, network…….HOLD THE PHONE! Little old me?? I’m not smart enough, I’m not confident enough, I don’t have a clue what I’m doing. Nah, I don’t think so. That’s only for the rich and famous! Elon Musk will sort that one. Besides, I gotta make a cup of tea first……
Honesty, who decided that 2 days of freedom for 5 days of work was a good trade? Don’t you people know I have a life to live, things to do, experiences to have, pictures to take……memories to be made!
I’m so STUCK! I hate it! It’s making me miserable, but I don’t know where to turn! Time is slipping away and running out on me, on us all for that matter! Confidence and self belief are big problems….along with so many other things.
I get pumped up, then quickly deflated and disillusioned. I believe in an idea, and that I can really do it this time, but then it fades. My mind jumps from one thing to another every hour of every day. Last week it was a book, a product, Upwork, copywriting, ebay, purchase an apartment block….
The thing is, I’m ‘just ok’ at most things, and not special at any. Jack of all trades and master of none as we say. I’m fairly average at everything, and can’t seem to focus on anything for longer than 5 minutes.
There’s more to life, and I’m going nowhere fast! It’s really, really getting me down in a BIG way. I’m not even sure what I expect to achieve with this intro, but I just need to get it off my chest, and I figured this is the place. Family and friends just don’t get it……
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