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Hello,
okay Im going to be honest.
I really wanted to just drop a : „Hello“
But okay since everyone is writinge here something. Im going to do that too.
About me in short form:
Im Adrian, 22 years old, from Germany, 2 older brothers, a cool cat.
From 16-18 I was really addicted to Weed. When I say really, I mean really.
This is not like smoking 2 joints a day. You can imagine it like a addicted cigarettes smoker smoking his cigarettes.
Yep,then it happened after my 18 birthday the psychosis set in.
I started to talk with god and the devil.
Friends from real life, stars I watched in the tv when I was younger,….,….
(A very long story and when I tell people about my experiences in the psychosis (btw I had 2) their faces go from interested to shocked to questioning the whole world.
If you want to know how it feels after psychosis just imagine your hardest heartbreak that you ever experienced multiplied by 40.
I lost my will to live.
Literally like a dead soul walking on earth. Suicide thoughts was a daily thing. I lost the trust to the people I love, all of my friend‘s.
Trust to my self.
I would have never killed myself because I didnt wanted to let my family feel more pain and obviously not a pain like that.
Instead I prayed to god to let me die while I sleep. I couldnt cry anymore, my body just kept cramping up.
This was the last time I cried probably now 3years ago.
Its not like that I cant feel sadness and sometimes there is coming a little tear down my eyes but yeah.
Okay shit I didnt want to turn this into a therapy group post.
( Just wanted to give a little detail about me)
Right now I feel better than ever. I fought through this part of my life and after that Im grateful it happened like this. After 2 years on meds Im finally my true self again.
There are a lot of studies how people live after psychosis.
Yep and I am on the good side of this studies.
After all that I see it like a veeery big „Personal Growth“
Yep thats all I wanted to say first.
You guys probably dont want to hear about this basic mindset stuff, so I leave it out.
I use this forum to improve my english (you probably noticed that by reading my text)
And to learn from people who are on the same lane like me
Fun Fact :
I started a skateboard course with a friend in elementary school 1€ per hour.
My dads phone got following calls :
1 call from a course customer
5 calls from people who said we have to take down the flyers
We earned 2€
If you have any questions hit me up
Have a great day!
okay Im going to be honest.
I really wanted to just drop a : „Hello“
But okay since everyone is writinge here something. Im going to do that too.
About me in short form:
Im Adrian, 22 years old, from Germany, 2 older brothers, a cool cat.
From 16-18 I was really addicted to Weed. When I say really, I mean really.
This is not like smoking 2 joints a day. You can imagine it like a addicted cigarettes smoker smoking his cigarettes.
Yep,then it happened after my 18 birthday the psychosis set in.
I started to talk with god and the devil.
Friends from real life, stars I watched in the tv when I was younger,….,….
(A very long story and when I tell people about my experiences in the psychosis (btw I had 2) their faces go from interested to shocked to questioning the whole world.
If you want to know how it feels after psychosis just imagine your hardest heartbreak that you ever experienced multiplied by 40.
I lost my will to live.
Literally like a dead soul walking on earth. Suicide thoughts was a daily thing. I lost the trust to the people I love, all of my friend‘s.
Trust to my self.
I would have never killed myself because I didnt wanted to let my family feel more pain and obviously not a pain like that.
Instead I prayed to god to let me die while I sleep. I couldnt cry anymore, my body just kept cramping up.
This was the last time I cried probably now 3years ago.
Its not like that I cant feel sadness and sometimes there is coming a little tear down my eyes but yeah.
Okay shit I didnt want to turn this into a therapy group post.
( Just wanted to give a little detail about me)
Right now I feel better than ever. I fought through this part of my life and after that Im grateful it happened like this. After 2 years on meds Im finally my true self again.
There are a lot of studies how people live after psychosis.
Yep and I am on the good side of this studies.
After all that I see it like a veeery big „Personal Growth“
Yep thats all I wanted to say first.
You guys probably dont want to hear about this basic mindset stuff, so I leave it out.
I use this forum to improve my english (you probably noticed that by reading my text)
And to learn from people who are on the same lane like me
Fun Fact :
I started a skateboard course with a friend in elementary school 1€ per hour.
My dads phone got following calls :
1 call from a course customer
5 calls from people who said we have to take down the flyers
We earned 2€
If you have any questions hit me up
Have a great day!
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