Start a security company. Turn your "negative" into a positive.
On a serious note, it's perfectly normal to assess your surroundings for threats. Talk to any guy that has a concealed carry license and see if you're more paranoid than they are. If you're more paranoid than the average person carrying, then you have a problem. If you're not then you're normal.
What kind of media are you taking in? Movies? What are you reading? Etc.
I had a friend that had similar anxiety and I believe it stemmed from him going on liveleak and watching messed up videos. Could be the same with watching movies, playing games, reading NEWS, etc.
How much caffeine are you drinking? How much marijuana are you smoking? How many substances are you putting into your body that increase the anxiety and paranoia?
Identify everything you put into your body and cutting it out if it's affecting your mental state.
"Go out" as in go out drinking? Because if so, it's normal for people to want to fight after they've been drinking. My friends and I use the term "fight mode" to describe the moment that you go from having a good time to hoping someone starts a fight. It's at that point that you have to be aware and stop drinking. Sometimes even go home. Drinking too much and getting angry is normal - just don't be a jerk and cut yourself off while you're still sober enough to know.
On a serious note, it's perfectly normal to assess your surroundings for threats. Talk to any guy that has a concealed carry license and see if you're more paranoid than they are. If you're more paranoid than the average person carrying, then you have a problem. If you're not then you're normal.
It's gotten to the point where I don't even enjoy anything anymore. Everything is in the paradigm of survival.
What kind of media are you taking in? Movies? What are you reading? Etc.
I had a friend that had similar anxiety and I believe it stemmed from him going on liveleak and watching messed up videos. Could be the same with watching movies, playing games, reading NEWS, etc.
If I sit in a coffee shop
How much caffeine are you drinking? How much marijuana are you smoking? How many substances are you putting into your body that increase the anxiety and paranoia?
Identify everything you put into your body and cutting it out if it's affecting your mental state.
I try to go out as little as possible because I'm afraid of what could set me off.
"Go out" as in go out drinking? Because if so, it's normal for people to want to fight after they've been drinking. My friends and I use the term "fight mode" to describe the moment that you go from having a good time to hoping someone starts a fight. It's at that point that you have to be aware and stop drinking. Sometimes even go home. Drinking too much and getting angry is normal - just don't be a jerk and cut yourself off while you're still sober enough to know.