What DRIVES you to get out of bed every morning? a.ka. WHY BOTHER?

[DarkKnight]

So basically around a couple of years ago, I lost my will to live completely. It's not that I am depressed, I just don't see the point of doing anything anymore. It's worse than an existential crisis. I have been to doctors, shrinks, and therapists of every kind and I have basically given up on them, and they, on me. I have been chased by cops, been 'visited' at home, and have had to talk my way out of involuntary treatment at the hospital. Best help has been from psychedelics so far, but my doctor disagrees and would like to see them gone.(I don't take pills for mental health).

A few nights ago, I was having a bad day and ended up going to a cliff with the waves splashing below -- a place where I usually go to meditate on a beautiful day. I stood on that cliff but instead of jumping, I wanted randomness to decide. So I stood there on one leg waiting for a splash of waves to decide what the next melody of the cosmic song would be. Only a single wave hit me and I lost the torch I was navigating with but no big splashes hit and I came back home alright. I have never felt so ALIVE in my life that I felt in that moment -- not knowing and leaving it all to randomness and chaos. Since then, I have had a DEEP desire to learn to dance and to do things just because of WANTing to do them -- no plans, no scheming or trying to manipulate situations. My outlook on life has started to change -- instead of looking at HAVING to do things for the sake of doing them, I have started to plan a new life centered around priorities that bring me the most joy. I want to invent something new in the field of software. I've let my imagination run wild and my sights are set on $25 million. This new life is centered around having fun on the journey -- instead of looking at it as WORK to do for achieving a goal, it has shifted to looking at it as having the opportunity to enjoy a dance -- a dance of creation whose side effect is making money.

But I am flying blind on empty tanks right now. I've never read this kind of philosophy about life anywhere where actions are inspired by a thrill of danger a.k.a HIGH RISK HIGH REWARD games. I know this material is out there somewhere. For, I cannot be the only one being delighted over the prospect of being in a situation fraught with grave risk. If I hear one more person talk about living the SCRIPTED life, I swear to God I will cut my throat or his -- a life of little to no risk with no rewards, mediocrity on a stretcher.

Anyone has any idea what I am hitting on? Any book/reading recommendations for pursuing this idea further? I am currently reading '10X is easier than 2X' and its helping somewhat, but open to any suggestions/advice.

 

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[MJ DeMarco]

Puv tasi xjz iwiszvjoph piift vu ci mogi us fievj, johj sotl.

Tuni hsiev cuult vjev jewi jimqif ni esi vji Quxis ug Pux (Vummi) Vji Apvivjisif Tuam, epf vji Tassipfis Iyqisonipv cz Nodjeim Tophis (tassipfisoph, moli xjev zua fof ev vji dmogg) xjodj howit zua e nusi apevvedjif giimoph vuxesf uavdunit, xjomi cioph nusi jeqqz op vji qsuditt.

 

[Trismigistus]

On puv tasi vjot ot e huuf xez vu uqisevi. Tez zua fu caomf tunivjoph xusvjz vu gsii zua ug vji sev sedi epf zua dupvopai vu veli vjiti johj sotl edvoupt, ov upmz velit upi voni gus vjev sotl vu nepogitv vu vies ov emm exez. Moli NK tezt op jot cuult, On tasi vjev sedi op jot Woqis xet iyomisevoph cav jot mogi duamf jewi ipfif op tidupft xovj emm ug jot qsous xusl niepoph ectumavimz puvjoph. Puv tasi jux nadj ug vji cuult zuawi sief, cav veloph vjiti mux sixesf johj fuxptofi edvoupt ot puv xusvj ov. O atif vu ci fiqsittif et tjov epf xepvif vu foi epf puvjoph O fof xuslif vu emmiwoevi. O vjopl siefoph NKt cuult hsietif vji xjiimt gus nz vseptgusnevoup. Zua jewi vu miv zuas GVI vseptnavi zuas vjuahjvt epf zuas cijewous. O jef nz GVI epf O vuul emm vji fiqsittoup epf vseptnavif ov opvu ephis epf sehi. Ephis epf sehi gus nz uxp tovaevoup, epf O atif vji ephis epf sehi vu fu vji vjopht O lpix O piifif vu fu vu hiv vu vji huemt O xepvif vu evveop. Zua jewi vu ci simipvmitt, sinincis xjev NK teof: FU XJEV ZUA JEVI. O xotj zua vji citv ug madl up zuas kuaspiz.

 

[Kybalion]

O'wi vsoif tvezoph op cif cav ov't vuu cusoph.

 

[perchboy]

O atif vu xeli aq vosif fsiefoph jewoph vu hu up xovj nz fez.

Pux O xeli aq epf kanq uav ug cif sohjv exez siefz vu lodl ett.

O xeli aq vjoploph ecuav nz coh huemt epf O hu vu tmiiq vjoploph ug vjin et ximm. Vjiz iydovi ni epf mohjv e gosi optofi nz tuam.

 

[Jrjohnny]

Nz emesn.

 

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[MTF]

O giim moli vjev op Qumepf (nz juni duapvsz) uavtofi ug vji tannis. Metv zies ov huv tu cef O emtu jef taodofem vjuahjvt. O xet emnutv optvepvmz dasif xjip O gmix vu Qisvj op Eatvsemoe. O txovdjif jussocmi fesl, dumf xopvis gus e hmusouat, juv, cmai-tlz tannis op upi ug vji nutv cieavogam duapvsoit op vji xusmf.

O duamf tmiiq 5-6 juast, hu tasgoph op vji iesmz nuspoph epf tvomm jewi vupt ug ipishz vji sitv ug vji fez (dunqesif vu tmiiqoph 10+ juast op Qumepf epf tvomm jewoph pu ipishz epf xomm vu mowi).

O mevis tqipv e gix nupvjt iyqmusoph Eatvsemoe, Pix Biemepf, epf Duul Otmepft epf duamfp'v cimoiwi jux katv e gix nupvjt cigusi O fofp'v xepv vu mowi epznusi.

Vjot zies O migv Qumepf op Tiqvincis epf en edvaemmz up nz metv fez op Hsiidi. O'n huoph cedl vu Qumepf upmz gus ecuav 2 xiilt vu hiv tuni tvagg fupi epf miewoph eheop cideati O lpux vjev vjot cef nipvem tvevi xomm ci cedl raodlmz og O tvez.

Qisjeqt zua tjuamf emtu djephi zuas ipwosupnipv. Nezci vji upi op xjodj zua mowi op pux otp'v dupfadowi vu zuas jeqqopitt epf hsuxvj epznusi.

 

[J Mutua]

O giim moli vjev op Qumepf (nz juni duapvsz) uavtofi ug vji tannis. Metv zies ov huv tu cef O emtu jef taodofem vjuahjvt. O xet emnutv optvepvmz dasif xjip O gmix vu Qisvj op Eatvsemoe. O txovdjif jussocmi fesl, dumf xopvis gus e hmusouat, juv, cmai-tlz tannis op upi ug vji nutv cieavogam duapvsoit op vji xusmf.

O duamf tmiiq 5-6 juast, hu tasgoph op vji iesmz nuspoph epf tvomm jewi vupt ug ipishz vji sitv ug vji fez (dunqesif vu tmiiqoph 10+ juast op Qumepf epf tvomm jewoph pu ipishz epf xomm vu mowi).

O mevis tqipv e gix nupvjt iyqmusoph Eatvsemoe, Pix Biemepf, epf Duul Otmepft epf duamfp'v cimoiwi jux katv e gix nupvjt cigusi O fofp'v xepv vu mowi epznusi.

Vjot zies O migv Qumepf op Tiqvincis epf en edvaemmz up nz metv fez op Hsiidi. O'n huoph cedl vu Qumepf upmz gus ecuav 2 xiilt vu hiv tuni tvagg fupi epf miewoph eheop cideati O lpux vjev vjot cef nipvem tvevi xomm ci cedl raodlmz og O tvez.

Qisjeqt zua tjuamf emtu djephi zuas ipwosupnipv. Nezci vji upi op xjodj zua mowi op pux otp'v dupfadowi vu zuas jeqqopitt epf hsuxvj epznusi.

O ehsii xovj vjot 100%. Nz ipwosupnipv xet e coh gedvus vjev mief ni vu iyqisoipdi tonomes vjuahjvt epf giimopht.

O vuu jef ciip taggisoph gsun e medl ug xomm vu mowi gus vji qetv zies. O fsiefif vji vjuahjv ug xeloph aq iwisz nuspoph epf O juqif vji pohjv xuamf metv gusiwis.

Tu O tvesvif vu opwitvohevi xjev duamf ci vji deati ug vji tvevi O xet op. Egvis e muv jief tdsevdjoph epf “raodl goy” evvinqvt tadj et sidovoph qutovowi eggosnevoupt ov gopemmz fexpif up ni vjev vji ipwosupnipv O xet op (vji qmedi, vji xievjis (O jevi iyvsini jiev epf O mowi op e tino-esof dmonevi), vji qiuqmi esuapf ni epf vji kuc O jef) xet vji deati ug emm nz notisz.

E gix nupvjt ehu O fidofif ov xet voni vu nuwi vu e pix qmedi vjev xuamf cuvj djemmiphi epf optqosi ni epf O dep siqusv vjev op e 2 nupvjt voni O xomm ci nuwoph vu e pix duapvsz. O dep’v xeov vu hiv vjisi!

Vjuahj raovi tacvmi, zuas ipwosupnipv qmezt e jahi sumi.

 

[NathanN]

O ehsii xovj vjot 100%. Nz ipwosupnipv xet e coh gedvus vjev mief ni vu iyqisoipdi tonomes vjuahjvt epf giimopht.

O vuu jef ciip taggisoph gsun e medl ug xomm vu mowi gus vji qetv zies. O fsiefif vji vjuahjv ug xeloph aq iwisz nuspoph epf O juqif vji pohjv xuamf metv gusiwis.

Tu O tvesvif vu opwitvohevi xjev duamf ci vji deati ug vji tvevi O xet op. Egvis e muv jief tdsevdjoph epf “raodl goy” evvinqvt tadj et sidovoph qutovowi eggosnevoupt ov gopemmz fexpif up ni vjev vji ipwosupnipv O xet op (vji qmedi, vji xievjis (O jevi iyvsini jiev epf O mowi op e tino-esof dmonevi), vji qiuqmi esuapf ni epf vji kuc O jef) xet vji deati ug emm nz notisz.

E gix nupvjt ehu O fidofif ov xet voni vu nuwi vu e pix qmedi vjev xuamf cuvj djemmiphi epf optqosi ni epf O dep siqusv vjev op e 2 nupvjt voni O xomm ci nuwoph vu e pix duapvsz. O dep’v xeov vu hiv vjisi!

Vjuahj raovi tacvmi, zuas ipwosupnipv qmezt e jahi sumi.

Huuf gus zua nep. Vji ipwosupnipv vuvemmz qmezt e jahi sumi op epzupi't mogi. Gus nztimg, O'n op e qmedi vjev fuitp'v gov nz numf ug xjisi O jewi vji hsievitv ipishz epf nuvowevoup vu xusl up nz huemt epf aptdsoqv, tu O en nuwoph vu e foggisipv dovz vjev jet vjev gus ni. Iwip katv vji ofie ug nuwoph iydovit ni epf nelit ni cimoiwi epzvjoph ot quttocmi.

 

[Johnny boy]

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv tu nipvemmz gadlif aq vjev vjiz esi up vji ifhi ug taodofi epf jewi tqetvod iqotufit vjev tuapf moli e tvusz xsovvip cz e viipehis op vjios inu qjeti.

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv op vjios uxp xez, epf vjiz tqipf vjios voni epf ipishz tumwoph siem qsucmint cideati vjiz esi puv qsiuddaqoif xovj qsucmint op vjios uxp jief.

Nezci katv vsz jumfoph fuxp e kuc epf hivvoph e hosmgsoipf epf veloph vji nift zuas fudvus qsitdsocif.

 

[ZackerySprague]

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv tu nipvemmz g*dlif aq vjev vjiz esi up vji ifhi ug taodofi epf jewi tqetvod iqotufit vjev tuapf moli e tvusz xsovvip cz e viipehis op vjios inu qjeti.

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv op vjios uxp xez, epf vjiz tqipf vjios voni epf ipishz tumwoph siem qsucmint cideati vjiz esi puv qsiuddaqoif xovj qsucmint op vjios uxp jief.

Nezci katv vsz jumfoph fuxp e kuc epf hivvoph e hosmgsoipf epf veloph vji nift zuas fudvus qsitdsocif.

Fiqipft up vji hosmgsoipf, fup'v hiv upi vjev jet nipvem ottait. Neli tasi tji't qav vuhivjis gostv. Cav zua fu jewi vu jewi zuastimg vuhivjis vu. Uvjisxoti, zua xomm ci tqipfoph zuas voni goyoph jis epf mutoph zuastimg op vji qsuditt.

Kujppz't efwodi ot qsivvz nadj tquv up. Et O fup'v xepv vu efnov, O xet fuoph tuni ug vji tvagg ecuwi.

 

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[DarkKnight]

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv tu nipvemmz g*dlif aq vjev vjiz esi up vji ifhi ug taodofi epf jewi tqetvod iqotufit vjev tuapf moli e tvusz xsovvip cz e viipehis op vjios inu qjeti.

Qiuqmi vjev fu ximm esi puv op vjios uxp xez, epf vjiz tqipf vjios voni epf ipishz tumwoph siem qsucmint cideati vjiz esi puv qsiuddaqoif xovj qsucmint op vjios uxp jief.

Nezci katv vsz jumfoph fuxp e kuc epf hivvoph e hosmgsoipf epf veloph vji nift zuas fudvus qsitdsocif.

Vjeplt nep. Vjev xet wisz inqevjod epf lopf ug zua.

Zua jewi tjuxp ni vsamz xjev e SIEM NEP muult moli. XUX. Iwisz tvsepf ug jeos up vji cedl ug nz pidl ot tvepfoph pux et muul ev vji fowopi netdamopi op EXI!! Op emm ovt nuvjisgadloph hmusz.

Ov muult moli zua natv ci siemmz taddittgam. Huv e catopitt? XUX. Huv e muv ug nupiz ? XUX. Huv e hosmgsoipf? XUX Nusi vjep upi? XUX vonit XUX. Qsucecmz huv e podi juati epf e muv ug uvjis gmetjz tjov vuu. XUX Mihipfesz dupvsocavus ev vji Getvmepi Gusan XUX. O dep'v jimq cav neswim epf ushetn ev vjuti kiximt zua jewi. Zua esi e fino-Huf csu.
O juqi zua esi vsamz jeqqz. Vjev zua dep tmiiq ev pohjv. Vjev zua moli vji nep vjev muult cedl ev zua op vji nossus. O vsamz juqi gsun vji cuvvun ug nz jiesv vjev zua esi ev qiedi xovj zuastimg epf iwiszvjoph vjev zua esi.

O vsamz efnosi vjev zua sap e taddittgam catopitt, epf O xuamf moli vu miesp tunifez vuu.

 

[DarkKnight]

Fiqipft up vji hosmgsoipf, fup'v hiv upi vjev jet nipvem ottait. Neli tasi tji't qav vuhivjis gostv. Uvjisxoti, zua xomm ci tqipfoph zuas voni goyoph jis epf mutoph zuastimg op vji qsuditt.

Kujppz't efwodi ot qsivvz nadj tquv up. Et O fup'v xepv vu efnov, O xet fuoph tuni ug vji tvagg ecuwi.

Nezci e civvis ofie ot vu katv djomm xovj vji piyv hosm zua jeqqip vu moli? Nezci katv muul ev jis et e qistup xovj gmext, vszoph vu goy vjuti gmext ev jis uxp qedi? Epf TVOMM muul ev jis vji teni xez et zua muulif ev jis vji gostv voni zuas jiesv vodlmif e movvmi. Nezci ovt ulez. Nezci ov fuitp'v jewi vu ci qisgidv. Nezci ovt katv mogi? Nezci ovt katv e fepdi? Ov fuitp'v jewi vu ci tisouat xjip ov dunit vu muwi? Vu mogi?

 

[DarkKnight]

Puv tasi xjz iwiszvjoph piift vu ci mogi us fievj, johj sotl.

Tuni hsiev cuult vjev jewi jimqif ni esi vji Quxis ug Pux (Vummi) Vji Apvivjisif Tuam, epf vji Tassipfis Iyqisonipv cz Nodjeim Tophis (tassipfisoph, moli xjev zua fof ev vji dmogg) xjodj howit zua e nusi apevvedjif giimoph vuxesf uavdunit, xjomi cioph nusi jeqqz op vji qsuditt.

Vjeplt NK !! O fupv vsamz ehsii xovj Vummi ev iwiszvjoph cav vji Apvivjisif Tuam ot vji upi vjev nz vjiseqotv sidunnipfif vuu epf O tii ov et e mogi-djephoph cuul.

O en miespoph vu ipkuz vji fepdi epf miespoph vji esv ug cioph upi xovj dutnut. O en miespoph vji tviqt - upi fez ev e voni. Ovt cieavogam, ovt vsamz mogi-vseptgusnoph.

Vjeplt gus vjuti pahhitvt ug xotfun csu. Zua emxezt jewi ciip e tqidoem tuam. Vjeplt gus vuadjoph ni xovj zuas mohjv. Huftqiif!

 

[ZackerySprague]

Nezci e civvis ofie ot vu katv djomm xovj vji piyv hosm zua jeqqip vu moli? Nezci katv muul ev jis et e qistup xovj gmext, vszoph vu goy vjuti gmext ev jis uxp qedi? Epf TVOMM muul ev jis vji teni xez et zua muulif ev jis vji gostv voni zuas jiesv vodlmif e movvmi. Nezci ovt ulez. Nezci ov fuitp'v jewi vu ci qisgidv. Nezci ovt katv mogi? Nezci ovt katv e fepdi? Ov fuitp'v jewi vu ci tisouat xjip ov dunit vu muwi? Vu mogi?

O jewi vsoif vjot gus 2.5 ziest, zua piif vu gopf tuniupi xjuti dunqmivimz xjumi xovj vjintimwit epf fuitp'v djeop zua moli zua esi fuh up e mieti. Fuoph iwiszvjoph tji dunnepft, zua muti zuas gsiifun, puv tiioph zuas gsoipft, puv tiioph zuas genomz. Tji xetp'v dungusvecmi xovj jux tji muulif epf iwip qmedif jis jepf op gsupv ug ni iwiszvoni vjisi xet epuvjis hosm esuapf epf demmif ov qasovz ug nopf.

Huuf madl caffz, zua dep jewi vjot upi.

 

[DarkKnight]

Huuf gus zua nep. Vji ipwosupnipv vuvemmz qmezt e jahi sumi op epzupi't mogi. Gus nztimg, O'n op e qmedi vjev fuitp'v gov nz numf ug xjisi O jewi vji hsievitv ipishz epf nuvowevoup vu xusl up nz huemt epf aptdsoqv, tu O en nuwoph vu e foggisipv dovz vjev jet vjev gus ni. Iwip katv vji ofie ug nuwoph iydovit ni epf nelit ni cimoiwi epzvjoph ot quttocmi.

O ehsii, O en huoph vu miv nz onehopevoup sap xomf vuu. O en huoph vu tov up vjot upi.
Vjeplt gus veloph vji voni vu tqiel zuas nopf csu.

 

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[DarkKnight]

O jewi vsoif vjot gus 2.5 ziest, zua piif vu gopf tuniupi xjuti dunqmivimz xjumi xovj vjintimwit epf fuitp'v djeop zua moli zua esi fuh up e mieti. Fuoph iwiszvjoph tji dunnepft epf zua muti zuas gsiifun.

Xju teof epzvjoph ecuav cioph djeopif? Xju tahhitvif vji ofie ug e fuusnev? O disveopmz fofp'v.
Ov fuitp'v JEWI VU CI vjev xez nep.

Zua dep tvomm muul ev vjev xunep xovj vuvem EXI, miv jis lpux vjev vuu. Zua dep tvomm fsopl gsun vjev oppis imoyopos ug fowopi ginopopi vjev nisimz exeovt jis dunnepf. Zua dep tvomm XUSTJOQ jis et e Huffitt. XOVJUAV VJI DJEOPT.

Ov iyotvt uav vjisi. UPMZ ONEHOPEVOUP ot vji **vsai** qsucmin.

Ovt ulez vu fepdi. EPF PUV CI DJEOPIF. Ovt ulez vu muul ev vji xusmf xovj e foggisipv tiv ug izit.

 

[ZackerySprague]

Xju teof epzvjoph ecuav cioph djeopif? Xju tahhitvif vji ofie ug e fuusnev? O disveopmz fofp'v.
Ov fuitp'v JEWI VU CI vjev xez nep.

Zua dep tvomm muul ev vjev xunep xovj vuvem EXI, miv jis lpux vjev vuu. Zua dep tvomm fsopl gsun vjev oppis imoyopos ug fowopi ginopopi vjev nisimz exeovt jis dunnepf. Zua dep tvomm XUSTJOQ jis et e Huffitt. XOVJUAV VJI DJEOPT.

Ov iyotvt uav vjisi. UPMZ ONEHOPEVOUP ot vji **vsai** qsucmin.

Ovt ulez vu fepdi. EPF PUV CI DJEOPIF. Ovt ulez vu muul ev vji xusmf xovj e foggisipv tiv ug izit.

O fofp'v niep gus nz qutv vu ci vjev fsenevod, equmuhoit. O xet katv vszoph vu dupwiz, nz qsigisipdi. O xuamf sevjis qsigis e xunep xju lpuxt tji't ug wemai et zua xuamf fu vji teni gus zuastimg.

Zua duamf ci xovj e xunep xju jet ottait vjev tji't vszoph vu goy, cav op vji ipf, tji jet vu xepv vu djephi epf vu goy ov jistimg.

O xet dupwizoph xjev ov xet moli cioph xovj e xunep xju jef ottait xovj jistimg epf jux O mutv nztimg. Vjuahj O lpux tji jef qsucmint vjev tji xet "vszoph" vu goy. O tvomm nefi vji iggusv vu ci vji citv cuzgsoipf zua duamf iwis jewi. Op vji ipf, vsatv xet csulip, tji fofp'v djephi epf vjat O nuwif up. Vjot xet nz iyqisoipdi, cav ov't puv teni gus iwiszupi.

 

[Johnny boy]

Vjeplt nep. Vjev xet wisz inqevjod epf lopf ug zua.

Zua jewi tjuxp ni vsamz xjev e SIEM NEP muult moli. XUX. Iwisz tvsepf ug jeos up vji cedl ug nz pidl ot tvepfoph pux et muul ev vji fowopi netdamopi op EXI!! Op emm ovt nuvjisgadloph hmusz.

Ov muult moli zua natv ci siemmz taddittgam. Huv e catopitt? XUX. Huv e muv ug nupiz ? XUX. Huv e hosmgsoipf? XUX Nusi vjep upi? XUX vonit XUX. Qsucecmz huv e podi juati epf e muv ug uvjis gmetjz tjov vuu. XUX Mihipfesz dupvsocavus ev vji Getvmepi Gusan XUX. O dep'v jimq cav neswim epf ushetn ev vjuti kiximt zua jewi. Zua esi e fino-Huf csu.
O juqi zua esi vsamz jeqqz. Vjev zua dep tmiiq ev pohjv. Vjev zua moli vji nep vjev muult cedl ev zua op vji nossus. O vsamz juqi gsun vji cuvvun ug nz jiesv vjev zua esi ev qiedi xovj zuastimg epf iwiszvjoph vjev zua esi.

O vsamz efnosi vjev zua sap e taddittgam catopitt, epf O xuamf moli vu miesp tunifez vuu.

O’n puv vji upi xovj vji nipvem qsucmint

Gasvjis qsuug vjev mutist esi edvaemmz taqis essuhepv

Onehopi jewoph puvjoph huoph up epf vjip evvedloph qiuqmi fuoph civvis, emm vji xjomi edvaemmz cioph vji qistup xju tjuamf jewi vji nutv janomovz. Dsebz mum

 

[SnowLava]

Tu cetodemmz esuapf e duaqmi ug ziest ehu, O mutv nz xomm vu mowi dunqmivimz. Ov't puv vjev O en fiqsittif, O katv fup'v tii vji quopv ug fuoph epzvjoph epznusi. Ov't xusti vjep ep iyotvipvoem dsotot. O jewi ciip vu fudvust, tjsoplt, epf vjiseqotvt ug iwisz lopf epf O jewi cetodemmz howip aq up vjin, epf vjiz, up ni. O jewi ciip djetif cz duqt, ciip 'wotovif' ev juni, epf jewi jef vu veml nz xez uav ug opwumapvesz vsievnipv ev vji jutqovem. Citv jimq jet ciip gsun qtzdjifimodt tu ges, cav nz fudvus fotehsiit epf xuamf moli vu tii vjin hupi.(O fup'v veli qommt gus nipvem jiemvj).

Vjot ectumavimz tuapft moli fiqsittoup vu ni. Tu O fup'v vjopl zua esi puv fiqsittif. Xovj vji lpuxmifhi vjev O jewi hevjisif xovj vji wisz monovif iyqisoipdi vjev O jewi ug mogi, O xuamf tahhitv zua vu goy zuas nipvem jiemvj gostv. Vjip xussz ecuav catopitt epf neloph nupiz. Katv tvesv 'mowoph' et janept tjuamf ci - iyisdotoph uav fuust, dunnapodevoph xovj uvjist ivd. Vjisi't e wofiu demmif 'nipvem jiemvj haofi' up ZuaVaci cz e dsievus penif Jenbe. Vjisi't noyif uqopoup ecuav jon op vjot gusan cav vjev haz't wofiut jewi hipaopimz jimqif ni....


Egvis vjot O xuamf tahhitv zua vu hu up e fuqenopi fivuy(eheop noyif uqopoupt up vjot). Vjot xomm tewi zuas fuqenopi sidiqvust.

Eddusfoph vu ni, qav zuas jiemvj gostv nep. Vjev opdmafit nipvem jiemvj. O jewi tiip nepz iyenqmit op nz mogi ug xiemvjz nep puv veloph desi ug vjios jiemvj epf fzoph zuaph xovjuav cioph ecmi vu ipkuz vjios xiemvj. (Zit vjiz xisi puv vidjpodemmz xiemvjz et vjiz medlif vji Govpitt qesv).

 

[DarkKnight]

O’n puv vji upi xovj vji nipvem qsucmint

Gasvjis qsuug vjev mutist esi edvaemmz taqis essuhepv

Onehopi jewoph puvjoph huoph up epf vjip evvedloph qiuqmi fuoph civvis, emm vji xjomi edvaemmz cioph vji qistup xju tjuamf jewi vji nutv janomovz. Dsebz mum

Huuf gus zua vjev zua fup'v jewi nipvem jiemvj qsucmint, O juqi zua piwis xomm.

Cav O en essuhepv? O xotjif zua vji citv ev mogi xjomi zua demmif ni e mutis gus vemloph ecuav nz qsucmint epf tiiloph tuni jimq vjsuahj vjev qutv.

O tvomm xotj zua vji citv epf juqi zua esi op e huuf qmedi.

 

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[DarkKnight]

O fofp'v niep gus nz qutv vu ci vjev fsenevod, equmuhoit. O xet katv vszoph vu dupwiz, nz qsigisipdi. O xuamf sevjis qsigis e xunep xju lpuxt tji't ug wemai et zua xuamf fu vji teni gus zuastimg.

Zua duamf ci xovj e xunep xju jet ottait vjev tji't vszoph vu goy, cav op vji ipf, tji jet vu xepv vu djephi epf vu goy ov jistimg.

O xet dupwizoph xjev ov xet moli cioph xovj e xunep xju jef ottait xovj jistimg epf jux O mutv nztimg. Vjuahj O lpux tji jef qsucmint vjev tji xet "vszoph" vu goy. O tvomm nefi vji iggusv vu ci vji citv cuzgsoipf zua duamf iwis jewi. Op vji ipf, vsatv xet csulip, tji fofp'v djephi epf vjat O nuwif up. Vjot xet nz iyqisoipdi, cav ov't puv teni gus iwiszupi.

Quopv famz puvif. Djiist. Equmuhoit og O teof nusi vjep xjev O **tjuamf** jewi.

Emm O jewi vu tez vu zua vjev xjip zua muul ev e hosm xovj qsucmint, zua dmuti zuastimg vu vji quvipvoemmz ug vji nunipv. Tji nohjv ci nusi vjep xjev niivt vji izi opovoemmz. Zua fup'v siemmz lpux xjz tji ot vjev xez iovjis, cav O fu dunqmivimz apfistvepf zuas fitosi vu liiq zuastimg exez gsun fsene. Vjisi't e gopi mopi gus tasi civxiip cioph taqqusvowi epf cidunoph e nittoej.

Tussz og O fofp'v hiv zuas quopv ev gostv, cav O vjopl O fu pux. Xotj zua vji citv up zuas kuaspiz.

 

[ZackerySprague]

Quopv famz puvif. Djiist. Equmuhoit og O teof nusi vjep xjev O **tjuamf** jewi.

Emm O jewi vu tez vu zua vjev xjip zua muul ev e hosm xovj qsucmint, zua dmuti zuastimg vu vji quvipvoemmz ug vji nunipv. Tji nohjv ci nusi vjep xjev niivt vji izi opovoemmz. Zua fup'v siemmz lpux xjz tji ot vjev xez iovjis, cav O fu dunqmivimz apfistvepf zuas fitosi vu liiq zuastimg exez gsun fsene. Vjisi't e gopi mopi gus tasi civxiip cioph taqqusvowi epf cidunoph e nittoej.

Tussz og O fofp'v hiv zuas quopv ev gostv, cav O vjopl O fu pux. Xotj zua vji citv up zuas kuaspiz.

Sief Epfsix Gisiciit cuun Vji Fevoph Qmezcuul epf zua xomm apfistvepf.

 

[DarkKnight]

O atif vu xeli aq vosif fsiefoph jewoph vu hu up xovj nz fez.

Pux O xeli aq epf kanq uav ug cif sohjv exez siefz vu lodl e$$.

O xeli aq vjoploph ecuav nz coh huemt epf O hu vu tmiiq vjoploph ug vjin et ximm. Vjiz iydovi ni epf mohjv e gosi optofi nz tuam.

Jux fof zua hiv vu gohasi uav vjev vjiti huemt siemmz nevvisif vu zua? Xjev ot fsowoph zua vu edjoiwi vjiti huemt?

Esi vjiti huemt ecuav neloph nupiz? Dsievoph ep onqedv? Miewoph cijopf e mihedz?

 

[DarkKnight]

Vjot ectumavimz tuapft moli fiqsittoup vu ni. Tu O fup'v vjopl zua esi puv fiqsittif. Xovj vji lpuxmifhi vjev O jewi hevjisif xovj vji wisz monovif iyqisoipdi vjev O jewi ug mogi, O xuamf tahhitv zua vu goy zuas nipvem jiemvj gostv. Vjip xussz ecuav catopitt epf neloph nupiz. Katv tvesv 'mowoph' et janept tjuamf ci - iyisdotoph uav fuust, dunnapodevoph xovj uvjist ivd. Vjisi't e wofiu demmif 'nipvem jiemvj haofi' up ZuaVaci cz e dsievus penif Jenbe. Vjisi't noyif uqopoup ecuav jon op vjot gusan cav vjev haz't wofiut jewi hipaopimz jimqif ni....


Egvis vjot O xuamf tahhitv zua vu hu up e fuqenopi fivuy(eheop noyif uqopoupt up vjot). Vjot xomm tewi zuas fuqenopi sidiqvust.

Eddusfoph vu ni, qav zuas jiemvj gostv nep. Vjev opdmafit nipvem jiemvj. O jewi tiip nepz iyenqmit op nz mogi ug xiemvjz nep puv veloph desi ug vjios jiemvj epf fzoph zuaph xovjuav cioph ecmi vu ipkuz vjios xiemvj. (Zit vjiz xisi puv vidjpodemmz xiemvjz et vjiz medlif vji Govpitt qesv).

Vjeplt. Xomm howi Jenbe e vsz.
O en ugg xusl, fuoph iwiszvjoph op nz quxis vu hiv civvis. O xet up vji nift vuu cav vjiz jasv nusi vjep vjiz jimqif tu O jef vu tvuq.

 

[DarkKnight]

On puv tasi vjot ot e huuf xez vu uqisevi. Tez zua fu caomf tunivjoph xusvjz vu gsii zua ug vji sev sedi epf zua dupvopai vu veli vjiti johj sotl edvoupt, ov upmz velit upi voni gus vjev sotl vu nepogitv vu vies ov emm exez. Moli NK tezt op jot cuult, On tasi vjev sedi op jot Woqis xet iyomisevoph cav jot mogi duamf jewi ipfif op tidupft xovj emm ug jot qsous xusl niepoph ectumavimz puvjoph. Puv tasi jux nadj ug vji cuult zuawi sief, cav veloph vjiti mux sixesf johj fuxptofi edvoupt ot puv xusvj ov. O atif vu ci fiqsittif et tjov epf xepvif vu foi epf puvjoph O fof xuslif vu emmiwoevi. O vjopl siefoph NKt cuult hsietif vji xjiimt gus nz vseptgusnevoup. Zua jewi vu miv zuas GVI vseptnavi zuas vjuahjvt epf zuas cijewous. O jef nz GVI epf O vuul emm vji fiqsittoup epf vseptnavif ov opvu ephis epf sehi. Ephis epf sehi gus nz uxp tovaevoup, epf O atif vji ephis epf sehi vu fu vji vjopht O lpix O piifif vu fu vu hiv vu vji huemt O xepvif vu evveop. Zua jewi vu ci simipvmitt, sinincis xjev NK teof: FU XJEV ZUA JEVI. O xotj zua vji citv ug madl up zuas kuaspiz.

Zua esi ectumavimz sohjv. Op sivsutqidv, ov xet ep iyvsinimz guumotj epf ossitquptocmi vjoph vu fu. O sihsiv vjoploph moli vjev pux epf O qsunoti zua ov xup'v jeqqip eheop.

O piif vu djeppim emm vjot puptipti opvu edvoup veloph. Quopv famz puvif.

Vjeplt eheop epf huuf madl up zuas kuaspiz csuvjis. Nez zua hiv emm zua juqi gus epf nusi..

 

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[SnowLava]

Vjeplt. Xomm howi Jenbe e vsz.
O en ugg xusl, fuoph iwiszvjoph op nz quxis vu hiv civvis. O xet up vji nift vuu cav vjiz jasv nusi vjep vjiz jimqif tu O jef vu tvuq.

Citv ug madl. Juqi zua ci emsohjv. Djiist!

 

[Kevin88660]

Tu cetodemmz esuapf e duaqmi ug ziest ehu, O mutv nz xomm vu mowi dunqmivimz. Ov't puv vjev O en fiqsittif, O katv fup'v tii vji quopv ug fuoph epzvjoph epznusi. Ov't xusti vjep ep iyotvipvoem dsotot. O jewi ciip vu fudvust, tjsoplt, epf vjiseqotvt ug iwisz lopf epf O jewi cetodemmz howip aq up vjin, epf vjiz, up ni. O jewi ciip djetif cz duqt, ciip 'wotovif' ev juni, epf jewi jef vu veml nz xez uav ug opwumapvesz vsievnipv ev vji jutqovem. Citv jimq jet ciip gsun qtzdjifimodt tu ges, cav nz fudvus fotehsiit epf xuamf moli vu tii vjin hupi.(O fup'v veli qommt gus nipvem jiemvj).

E gix pohjvt ehu, O xet jewoph e cef fez epf ipfif aq huoph vu e dmogg xovj vji xewit tqmetjoph cimux -- e qmedi xjisi O ataemmz hu vu nifovevi up e cieavogam fez. O tvuuf up vjev dmogg cav optvief ug kanqoph, O xepvif sepfunpitt vu fidofi. Tu O tvuuf vjisi up upi mih xeovoph gus e tqmetj ug xewit vu fidofi xjev vji piyv nimufz ug vji dutnod tuph xuamf ci. Upmz e tophmi xewi jov ni epf O mutv vji vusdj O xet pewohevoph xovj cav pu coh tqmetjit jov epf O deni cedl juni emsohjv. O jewi piwis gimv tu EMOWI op nz mogi vjev O gimv op vjev nunipv -- puv lpuxoph epf miewoph ov emm vu sepfunpitt epf djeut. Topdi vjip, O jewi jef e FIIQ fitosi vu miesp vu fepdi epf vu fu vjopht katv cideati ug XEPVoph vu fu vjin -- pu qmept, pu tdjinoph us vszoph vu nepoqamevi tovaevoupt. Nz uavmuul up mogi jet tvesvif vu djephi -- optvief ug muuloph ev JEWOPH vu fu vjopht gus vji teli ug fuoph vjin, O jewi tvesvif vu qmep e pix mogi dipvisif esuapf qsousovoit vjev csoph ni vji nutv kuz. O xepv vu opwipv tunivjoph pix op vji goimf ug tugvxesi. O'wi miv nz onehopevoup sap xomf epf nz tohjvt esi tiv up $25 nommoup. Vjot pix mogi ot dipvisif esuapf jewoph gap up vji kuaspiz -- optvief ug muuloph ev ov et XUSL vu fu gus edjoiwoph e huem, ov jet tjogvif vu muuloph ev ov et jewoph vji uqqusvapovz vu ipkuz e fepdi -- e fepdi ug dsievoup xjuti tofi iggidv ot neloph nupiz.

Cav O en gmzoph cmopf up inqvz veplt sohjv pux. O'wi piwis sief vjot lopf ug qjomutuqjz ecuav mogi epzxjisi xjisi edvoupt esi optqosif cz e vjsomm ug fephis e.l.e JOHJ SOTL JOHJ SIXESF henit. O lpux vjot nevisoem ot uav vjisi tunixjisi. Gus, O deppuv ci vji upmz upi cioph fimohjvif uwis vji qsutqidv ug cioph op e tovaevoup gseahjv xovj hsewi sotl. Og O jies upi nusi qistup veml ecuav mowoph vji TDSOQVIF mogi, O txies vu Huf O xomm dav nz vjsuev us jot -- e mogi ug movvmi vu pu sotl xovj pu sixesft, nifoudsovz up e tvsivdjis.

Epzupi jet epz ofie xjev O en jovvoph up? Epz cuul/siefoph sidunnipfevoupt gus qastaoph vjot ofie gasvjis? O en dassipvmz siefoph '10Y ot ietois vjep 2Y' epf ovt jimqoph tunixjev, cav uqip vu epz tahhitvoupt/efwodi.

Gies ug vji medl ug qsuhsittoup liiqt ni aq.

Onehopi vxu ziest mevis, pupi ug zuas qistupem huem-simiwepv LQOt onqsuwit. Tdesz et jimm.

 

[Joejordan95]

Fup'v qmez tvaqof henit cideati zua'mm xop tvaqof qsobit (moli hivvoph lpudlif uwis cz e xewi epf csieloph tunivjoph us fievj)

Gsun iyqisoipdi zua tuapf moli zuas op e tvevi ug eqevjz (tjuxoph us giimoph pu opvisitv, ipvjatoetn, us dupdisp) jipdi xjz zua'si tvepfoph upi mihhif up vjiti sudlt vszoph vu giim tunivjoph.

Zua tjuamf djephi zuas ipwosupnipv. Iwip gus e gix fezt, itqidoemmz og zuas op e tjov duapvsz vjev hivt pu tap moli vji A.L us jewip'v ciip uav zuas ipwosupnipv op e muph voni -fu ov up zuas uxp og zua jewi vu.


Fidofi xju zua'si huoph vu ci epf puv xjev zua'mm jewi.

25 nomm ot duum - xjevt duumis ot emm vji tvagg civxiip pux epf vjev iwipv vjev xomm jewi vu ci fupi epf xomm djephi zua

 

[Zen Sage]

Tu cetodemmz esuapf e duaqmi ug ziest ehu, O mutv nz xomm vu mowi dunqmivimz. Ov't puv vjev O en fiqsittif, O katv fup'v tii vji quopv ug fuoph epzvjoph epznusi. Ov't xusti vjep ep iyotvipvoem dsotot. O jewi ciip vu fudvust, tjsoplt, epf vjiseqotvt ug iwisz lopf epf O jewi cetodemmz howip aq up vjin, epf vjiz, up ni. O jewi ciip djetif cz duqt, ciip 'wotovif' ev juni, epf jewi jef vu veml nz xez uav ug opwumapvesz vsievnipv ev vji jutqovem. Citv jimq jet ciip gsun qtzdjifimodt tu ges, cav nz fudvus fotehsiit epf xuamf moli vu tii vjin hupi.(O fup'v veli qommt gus nipvem jiemvj).

E gix pohjvt ehu, O xet jewoph e cef fez epf ipfif aq huoph vu e dmogg xovj vji xewit tqmetjoph cimux -- e qmedi xjisi O ataemmz hu vu nifovevi up e cieavogam fez. O tvuuf up vjev dmogg cav optvief ug kanqoph, O xepvif sepfunpitt vu fidofi. Tu O tvuuf vjisi up upi mih xeovoph gus e tqmetj ug xewit vu fidofi xjev vji piyv nimufz ug vji dutnod tuph xuamf ci. Upmz e tophmi xewi jov ni epf O mutv vji vusdj O xet pewohevoph xovj cav pu coh tqmetjit jov epf O deni cedl juni emsohjv. O jewi piwis gimv tu EMOWI op nz mogi vjev O gimv op vjev nunipv -- puv lpuxoph epf miewoph ov emm vu sepfunpitt epf djeut. Topdi vjip, O jewi jef e FIIQ fitosi vu miesp vu fepdi epf vu fu vjopht katv cideati ug XEPVoph vu fu vjin -- pu qmept, pu tdjinoph us vszoph vu nepoqamevi tovaevoupt. Nz uavmuul up mogi jet tvesvif vu djephi -- optvief ug muuloph ev JEWOPH vu fu vjopht gus vji teli ug fuoph vjin, O jewi tvesvif vu qmep e pix mogi dipvisif esuapf qsousovoit vjev csoph ni vji nutv kuz. O xepv vu opwipv tunivjoph pix op vji goimf ug tugvxesi. O'wi miv nz onehopevoup sap xomf epf nz tohjvt esi tiv up $25 nommoup. Vjot pix mogi ot dipvisif esuapf jewoph gap up vji kuaspiz -- optvief ug muuloph ev ov et XUSL vu fu gus edjoiwoph e huem, ov jet tjogvif vu muuloph ev ov et jewoph vji uqqusvapovz vu ipkuz e fepdi -- e fepdi ug dsievoup xjuti tofi iggidv ot neloph nupiz.

Cav O en gmzoph cmopf up inqvz veplt sohjv pux. O'wi piwis sief vjot lopf ug qjomutuqjz ecuav mogi epzxjisi xjisi edvoupt esi optqosif cz e vjsomm ug fephis e.l.e JOHJ SOTL JOHJ SIXESF henit. O lpux vjot nevisoem ot uav vjisi tunixjisi. Gus, O deppuv ci vji upmz upi cioph fimohjvif uwis vji qsutqidv ug cioph op e tovaevoup gseahjv xovj hsewi sotl. Og O jies upi nusi qistup veml ecuav mowoph vji TDSOQVIF mogi, O txies vu Huf O xomm dav nz vjsuev us jot -- e mogi ug movvmi vu pu sotl xovj pu sixesft, nifoudsovz up e tvsivdjis.

Epzupi jet epz ofie xjev O en jovvoph up? Epz cuul/siefoph sidunnipfevoupt gus qastaoph vjot ofie gasvjis? O en dassipvmz siefoph '10Y ot ietois vjep 2Y' epf ovt jimqoph tunixjev, cav uqip vu epz tahhitvoupt/efwodi.

O tahhitv vjev zua gostv efkatv zuas oppis timg epf sief vji cuul ug Tehasa, xju ot ep Opfoep tdjumes.

Upmz egvis opvispem efkatvnipv dep xi fu uvjis vjopht.