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- Apr 21, 2011
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Well this may have been the kick in the a$$ I needed. I just recently moved to LA about 2.5 months ago, and have hated pretty much everything about it. I am so sick of moving! I have moved 7 times in the last 3 years. I want to find a place where I can -maybe not so much settle down- but have a "home base" Make friendships that last decades not months. Establish roots. Enjoy my life. Be in nature. I feel alive and refreshed in nature. Looking at it. Being outside in it.
I lived in a small mountain ski town last 2 winters ago and this last year. Wanted to "follow my dreams" and hated driving 2.5 hrs to go to any kind of store, so I moved to LA. It is sucking the life out of me. I am mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. I don't even want it to get better, I hate it so much. Now I have realized that my dreams may not have been what I thought they were, and my priorities and values may have shifted. This probably coming from the last year of really taking time to go through a lot of healing and understanding who I am and who God is. (I was in ministry school for a year, just for personal enrichment purposes).
Part of me says, just because it's hard doesn't mean you aren't supposed to be here, or it won't get better. It's a major culture shock. The other part of me feels like my soul is being sucked right out of me and I dread just about everything. All I want to do is stay in bed. Yeah, that's going to help me accomplish my goals... being depressed in bed all day everyday. How fastlane...
I want to move to Salt Lake City. I love the idea of being close to the city so I can have access to more activities and shopping, but still living in the small mountain town and go skiing/hiking/other outdoorsy stuff everyday. There is nothing more beautiful than waking up in the early morning and seeing all the trees covered in several inches of pristine snow. I make excuses, am afraid of this that and the other thing, I don't know anybody, I'm not a Mormon, what if I hate SLC too? But what is my other choice? Try to make it work in LA and live somewhere I hate for a few years before I finally can't stand it and move anyway? What's the worst that can happen? I don't like it there and move again... it's ok to "make a mistake" Not even making a mistake, just trying something and figuring out what you want really. I'd rather move 4 times in the next year and find the place I want to be, than waste a year or three trying to make it work in a place I know I have no desire to stay in long term. There is literally nothing here that is keeping me here... the only silver lining is that... there actually is nothing keeping me here! I can make my own choice, own my life, and do what is going to make me the most happy and productive.
I lived in a small mountain ski town last 2 winters ago and this last year. Wanted to "follow my dreams" and hated driving 2.5 hrs to go to any kind of store, so I moved to LA. It is sucking the life out of me. I am mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. I don't even want it to get better, I hate it so much. Now I have realized that my dreams may not have been what I thought they were, and my priorities and values may have shifted. This probably coming from the last year of really taking time to go through a lot of healing and understanding who I am and who God is. (I was in ministry school for a year, just for personal enrichment purposes).
Part of me says, just because it's hard doesn't mean you aren't supposed to be here, or it won't get better. It's a major culture shock. The other part of me feels like my soul is being sucked right out of me and I dread just about everything. All I want to do is stay in bed. Yeah, that's going to help me accomplish my goals... being depressed in bed all day everyday. How fastlane...
I want to move to Salt Lake City. I love the idea of being close to the city so I can have access to more activities and shopping, but still living in the small mountain town and go skiing/hiking/other outdoorsy stuff everyday. There is nothing more beautiful than waking up in the early morning and seeing all the trees covered in several inches of pristine snow. I make excuses, am afraid of this that and the other thing, I don't know anybody, I'm not a Mormon, what if I hate SLC too? But what is my other choice? Try to make it work in LA and live somewhere I hate for a few years before I finally can't stand it and move anyway? What's the worst that can happen? I don't like it there and move again... it's ok to "make a mistake" Not even making a mistake, just trying something and figuring out what you want really. I'd rather move 4 times in the next year and find the place I want to be, than waste a year or three trying to make it work in a place I know I have no desire to stay in long term. There is literally nothing here that is keeping me here... the only silver lining is that... there actually is nothing keeping me here! I can make my own choice, own my life, and do what is going to make me the most happy and productive.
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