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Namaste
My name is Avinash and I’m originally from a poor area in India
I've been for a while a lurker on this forum but now I decided to write my story
I don't know why I write it, perhaps because I hope someone will understand me and give me some life-changing advice
Sorry for my english sir
I also posted on reddit but I think it is the most toxic website these days, you have to beg the moderators to allow your posts, people downvote and make fun of you for no reason
Let me say I was a fragile and shy kid
My parents taught me to be good in school and respect everyone
They are good people but unfortunately they worked hard all their lives and are still poor
I acknowledge them authority and pleased them
I was the best in school, best grades teacher liked me they told me I will do great in the future for sure
I won numerous school competitions, olympiads and other things
I was also bullied a lot because of my kind and reserved nature by both guys and girls
At 18 I was hired as a customer service representative
I did good but the boss was strange at times because he praised me today, but tomorrow he gave me hell for no reason. He loved to act like that to its employees. After 1 year and half I got fired along other 2 guys because the boss told us he has some money problems. Then I worked part time in a cafe but the experience was also pretty bad
Maybe I’m just unlucky, maybe people tend to be the worst to guys with anxiety like me
No idea, but at 20 years old I understood that I want to work for myself, to be my own boss
Because I was bullied and had low self esteem I also told myself I want to do good and useful things for society so I can prove I’m not a loser and to leave something behind me after I die
But most importantly, I want to be financially independent
I grew up in poverty and I know what it feels like to have no electricity or clean water
My parents worked hard all their life but are still poor and get no respect for being hard honest working people
Meanwhile, here people with lot of money are respected regardless of their character traits and they do whatever they want regardless of the law
I set myself the goal of becoming a millionaire by the age of 33
I’m 32 years old this year and I’m tired and feel like I want to disappear like Houdini's elephant
No matter what I try, I fail
And believe me I tried a lot of things in these past years
First, I have read many many many books on entrepreneurship, marketing, copywriting, sales, negotiation you name it everything to improve my mindset and knowledge and I did a lot of courses on platforms like udemy coursera khan academy skillshare edx and many more
Entrepreneurs who started with nothing and became rich inspire me like Dhirubhai Ambani, Ramesh Babu, Naina Lal Kidwai, Laxmi Mittal, Byju Raveendran, Konosuke Matsushita, Sam Walton ofc MJ DeMarco to name a few
Now let me present you randomly few examples of what I tried:
- first of course I tried “beermoney” things but it’s impossible to make a living of it let alone become rich, its just slavery for low money
- learned wordpress and how to create website on it ( tried as freelance but no clients )
- learned html, css and javascript and understand how to create websites from scratch ( tried as freelance but no clients )
- learned java and made some apps for android but almost no downloads
- learned swift and made apps for iphones, I borrowed friend mac to be able to do it and worked together with him but again few downloads
- learned python and machine learning and did some apps like photorealistic image generation or image-super resolution using A.I. but again low downloads
- learned c# and unity, c++ and unreal, and gdscript and godot and made various videogames I published on itch for free but again almost no downloads
to be able to make games, I also self learned photoshop, maya 3d, zbrush, substance painter and few other software
- invested some money I had in cryptocurrency like shiba but i failed
- made account on gumroad and published some ebooks in education category, but no sales
- made account on mintable and uploaded some nft but nobody bought them
- made youtube account and made funny videos compilation and motivational videos, but almost no views
- learned cyber security to become a bug bounty hunter but its impossible the competition is to damn high, there are people with ten + years of experience and it’s very hard to find a new bug before them, it will be duplicate
- and a lot of other things
If you ask me “what do I like the most’ I don’t know what to answer you
I like IT stuff, to work on computer but I want to be my own boss and do my own thing
I guess I like making PC games but is all about luck, it’s the "who you know" thing, like I just read recently about writer Dr. Seuss the guy who wrote “cat in the hat”, his book was rejected by a lot of publisher, J’K Rowling Harry Potter book also was rejected many times so even if you do something of good quality it doesn't mean you will succeed, you also need to have luck
And for some reason the universe doesn't want me to get lucky
I know I'm complaining, but what can I do?
I've tried everything and still to no avail
I have low motivation these days and I feel like i have no reason to breathe oxygen
I feel like im good for nothing
Only want to be very rich, is the only thing I care about in this life and I’m willing to die for it
Don't get me wrong I don't care about the money, but I care about the life you can have because of the money
A friend's grandfather died because they had no money to pay to hospital
In many places in the world if you don't have money you don't exist
I envy people who are born rich and do whatever they want, or people who have luck and accomplish their objectives with little to no work
Most guys I know are not interested in entrepreneurship, only care about party, sex, drinking stuff like that or they have family and spends time with wife and their kids
I hate social media and I will never try nsfw things or illegal hacking things because I don’t want to make money that way
But it seems no matter I try I always fail
I don’t know what to do
Maybe I’m just no good at all
I failed and I’m tired
My name is Avinash and I’m originally from a poor area in India
I've been for a while a lurker on this forum but now I decided to write my story
I don't know why I write it, perhaps because I hope someone will understand me and give me some life-changing advice
Sorry for my english sir
I also posted on reddit but I think it is the most toxic website these days, you have to beg the moderators to allow your posts, people downvote and make fun of you for no reason
Let me say I was a fragile and shy kid
My parents taught me to be good in school and respect everyone
They are good people but unfortunately they worked hard all their lives and are still poor
I acknowledge them authority and pleased them
I was the best in school, best grades teacher liked me they told me I will do great in the future for sure
I won numerous school competitions, olympiads and other things
I was also bullied a lot because of my kind and reserved nature by both guys and girls
At 18 I was hired as a customer service representative
I did good but the boss was strange at times because he praised me today, but tomorrow he gave me hell for no reason. He loved to act like that to its employees. After 1 year and half I got fired along other 2 guys because the boss told us he has some money problems. Then I worked part time in a cafe but the experience was also pretty bad
Maybe I’m just unlucky, maybe people tend to be the worst to guys with anxiety like me
No idea, but at 20 years old I understood that I want to work for myself, to be my own boss
Because I was bullied and had low self esteem I also told myself I want to do good and useful things for society so I can prove I’m not a loser and to leave something behind me after I die
But most importantly, I want to be financially independent
I grew up in poverty and I know what it feels like to have no electricity or clean water
My parents worked hard all their life but are still poor and get no respect for being hard honest working people
Meanwhile, here people with lot of money are respected regardless of their character traits and they do whatever they want regardless of the law
I set myself the goal of becoming a millionaire by the age of 33
I’m 32 years old this year and I’m tired and feel like I want to disappear like Houdini's elephant
No matter what I try, I fail
And believe me I tried a lot of things in these past years
First, I have read many many many books on entrepreneurship, marketing, copywriting, sales, negotiation you name it everything to improve my mindset and knowledge and I did a lot of courses on platforms like udemy coursera khan academy skillshare edx and many more
Entrepreneurs who started with nothing and became rich inspire me like Dhirubhai Ambani, Ramesh Babu, Naina Lal Kidwai, Laxmi Mittal, Byju Raveendran, Konosuke Matsushita, Sam Walton ofc MJ DeMarco to name a few
Now let me present you randomly few examples of what I tried:
- first of course I tried “beermoney” things but it’s impossible to make a living of it let alone become rich, its just slavery for low money
- learned wordpress and how to create website on it ( tried as freelance but no clients )
- learned html, css and javascript and understand how to create websites from scratch ( tried as freelance but no clients )
- learned java and made some apps for android but almost no downloads
- learned swift and made apps for iphones, I borrowed friend mac to be able to do it and worked together with him but again few downloads
- learned python and machine learning and did some apps like photorealistic image generation or image-super resolution using A.I. but again low downloads
- learned c# and unity, c++ and unreal, and gdscript and godot and made various videogames I published on itch for free but again almost no downloads
to be able to make games, I also self learned photoshop, maya 3d, zbrush, substance painter and few other software
- invested some money I had in cryptocurrency like shiba but i failed
- made account on gumroad and published some ebooks in education category, but no sales
- made account on mintable and uploaded some nft but nobody bought them
- made youtube account and made funny videos compilation and motivational videos, but almost no views
- learned cyber security to become a bug bounty hunter but its impossible the competition is to damn high, there are people with ten + years of experience and it’s very hard to find a new bug before them, it will be duplicate
- and a lot of other things
If you ask me “what do I like the most’ I don’t know what to answer you
I like IT stuff, to work on computer but I want to be my own boss and do my own thing
I guess I like making PC games but is all about luck, it’s the "who you know" thing, like I just read recently about writer Dr. Seuss the guy who wrote “cat in the hat”, his book was rejected by a lot of publisher, J’K Rowling Harry Potter book also was rejected many times so even if you do something of good quality it doesn't mean you will succeed, you also need to have luck
And for some reason the universe doesn't want me to get lucky
I know I'm complaining, but what can I do?
I've tried everything and still to no avail
I have low motivation these days and I feel like i have no reason to breathe oxygen
I feel like im good for nothing
Only want to be very rich, is the only thing I care about in this life and I’m willing to die for it
Don't get me wrong I don't care about the money, but I care about the life you can have because of the money
A friend's grandfather died because they had no money to pay to hospital
In many places in the world if you don't have money you don't exist
I envy people who are born rich and do whatever they want, or people who have luck and accomplish their objectives with little to no work
Most guys I know are not interested in entrepreneurship, only care about party, sex, drinking stuff like that or they have family and spends time with wife and their kids
I hate social media and I will never try nsfw things or illegal hacking things because I don’t want to make money that way
But it seems no matter I try I always fail
I don’t know what to do
Maybe I’m just no good at all
I failed and I’m tired
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